I am so fucking bored......in every aspect of the word (kate this is my thoughts....go away n dont read in to it).well lets start with bored with LIFE,love,relationships(personal n emotional)pain ,suffering ,happiness,smiles,frowns....bout every thing!!!!!
im so fucking numb right now severing 2 tendons 95%through fucking tickeled n i hope it happens 2 my other wrist so may B i got somthing 2 smile at.....that or road kill kittens/puupies...that will do it that will put a big dirty fuck off smile of joy on my tight,i fucking hate every thing mean ass face............................."PPL REMEMBER"THIS IS MY FUCKING JOURNAL N I WANT NO COMMENTS THAT AINT QUESTIONS UNRELATED!!!!!!!!!!!! OR "OOOO U FEEL BETTER SOON" BULL SHIT JUST PISS OFF N LET ME B!!!!!II WROTE THIS TO GET IT OFF MY CHEST SO FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCK OFF WITH YOUR OPINIONS ON MY LIFE N FEELINS <^> (0.o)<^>
im so fucking numb right now severing 2 tendons 95%through fucking tickeled n i hope it happens 2 my other wrist so may B i got somthing 2 smile at.....that or road kill kittens/puupies...that will do it that will put a big dirty fuck off smile of joy on my tight,i fucking hate every thing mean ass face............................."PPL REMEMBER"THIS IS MY FUCKING JOURNAL N I WANT NO COMMENTS THAT AINT QUESTIONS UNRELATED!!!!!!!!!!!! OR "OOOO U FEEL BETTER SOON" BULL SHIT JUST PISS OFF N LET ME B!!!!!II WROTE THIS TO GET IT OFF MY CHEST SO FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCK OFF WITH YOUR OPINIONS ON MY LIFE N FEELINS <^> (0.o)<^>
Unfortunately, I'm not going to stop bitching. It is just what I do. I'm not much an optimist...Never have been, and most likely, never will be. So yes, my journals are always going to come off as me whining about how life is unfair and all that jazz.
And if you look back at it again, you'll notice that I also said I'm happier as of late than I have been. I've been talking to and hanging out with my friends a lot more lately, and overall, just enjoying life a bit more. But never the less, I'm still going to bitch because I still wake up every day feeling like shit...My health hasn't improved, but I'm dealing with all the emotional bullshit that comes with it better.
And as sad as it is, talking about all the downer bullshit, as you put it, on here does in fact help me. I could care less about what people here think of me. I don't post for their well wishes and all that...I mean, it helps, but that's not why I do it. I post that shit so that I can get it off my chest...So that it all doesn't sit inside of me and boil up.
Anyway, like I said, I'm a bitcher, it is just what I do. If you don't like it, just ignore it and read the happier parts of my blogs