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Nice to have a day off from work, even if it was a little emotional.
So Wednesday night I left work late and we decided to go to Dave's Famous BBQ, Some place that is new here in Philly near the Ikea, it was a themed log cabin / ski resort eatery with large rolls of paper towels and a six pack of different BBQ sauces on every table. most of the people who dine here are over 180lbs easy. I started out with a root beer float, and some wings, not hot wings but BBQ hot wings, there were pretty good, then I shared a XXL slab of ribs with a co worker friend that joined us, with some Cole slaw and fries. We were all overload with SALT for sure.

I think my rash is coming back, sad enough, will this shit ever end. I called the Dr to see if I could get another dose of Prednisone, still waiting to hear back, not sure how safe that stuff is to keep taking. but I have been itchy all night.

saw The life Aquatic movie, it was not horrible but not as good as I hoped for either, but now I have that theme song stuck in my head.

So it was too cloudy and some even was taking place ant the Eastern State Penn yesterday. so we would up doing studio work, we will eventually attempt the penn Shoot again soon. But at least I finally got one shoot in this year!

So my mom just called me, and I told her I was avoiding her on purpose, and I tried to explain to her that I was fed up with all the dysfunctional bullshit, and that she has been a shitty Mother, and that now my life is being affected by the shit that happened in my past due to her decisions and that she hasn't changed. of course she was being nice on the phone witch made it hard for me. and she was saying maybe she needs to re evaluate her life as well. and that she just needed to know I was OK, and I was like I AM OK and it ended weird, she was like ok have a nice day, but not condescending, kinda Sad. of course I got all emotional at work. like I want to cut her out of my life, but she makes me feel sad. as for my sister I could care less if I ever see her again. I told her I am tired of being the Mother, I just want a normal life!

I dyed my hair 2 times, just to get rid of the purple, just dyed it to my natural hair color.

just 4 more weeks till I get out of Philly for some shoots,
where is a good place that has sun and sand for one person to go and collect themselves that is not a lesbian retreat?

OCDF:80%
Food craving: Strawberry Shortcake on warm buttered biscuits