A models worst fear - False Alarm
Constantine Gedal
This is more like a scary short tale that might put some thought in other models minds for safekeeping. and before i go further just know everything was more than fine. In fact the shoot was fantastic.
I have been going to photo shoots with out an escort for about 5 years or so now.
I always felt as if i chose to work with someone whom had a good reputation to lose it would somewhat protect me. By now i knew what red flags to look for when accepting to shoot or be in the confines of private places with strange men with cameras.
I also realize that the older we get the more mortal we become and sometimes our worst fears are manifested in our imagination.
I also try to make it a habit of leaving my boyfriend all the information of a shoot, Location, photographers name, email, phone number. unless it's with someone i have already established a working relationship with.
I recently agreed to do a shoot and accepted a third party/assistant driving me to the location.
Mind you i had not done any of the above as far as leaving info behind to cover my ass aside from leaving an email chain open, between myself and the photographer. So i left my BF sleeping in bed, with no idea of what location i was heading off to.
The assistant picked me up, he had a yellow rose on the dashboard, was very polite and handed me a bottle of cold water. we introduced ourselves and took off for about a 20/30 min drive to the location that was pretty much a mystery to me other than the town it was in.
I cracked the seal on the bottle and took a few sips even though i was not really thirsty.
and now that i think about it i usually accept drinks/beverages when offered as kind gesture by a polite photographer. Is it risky to accept anything from a stranger in the form of a beverage? Probably so.
About 20 mins into the drive i start to feel woozy in the bucket car seat i am in. i feel like i am sinking into it
My vision becomes slightly blurred, I have sunglasses on as well. my hearing gets muffled. All i know is i don't want to lose consciousness. The more i panic the worst it becomes.
My mind knows i am Hypoglycemic but i don't usually have any issues at 8:30 in the morning. and my blood sugar can't possibly that low, i ate pasta the night before.
I start to panic and my mind is searching for a viable reason on why i am losing control.
Fear sets in fast. all i can think of is that it's the few sips of water i took, i remember the seal crack but i guess that doesn't really mean shit. I imagine that i am being taken advantage of and that i will be buried alive and tortured, not in that order of course. Rape is the least thing that scares me. Knowing my boyfriend has no idea where i am and that i took the car to work to meet my ride is also a mystery to him, Hell he is still sleeping at home.
I also think of jumping out of a moving car. my attempts to shake it off and act normal seem to be working, he has no clue yet that what ever i drank is working.
I try to absorb as much land marks as possible to where my location seems to be heading. but i am not really in any condition to remember much, I spot a CVS in the distance and i say " hey can we stop at that CVS?
and he Say's why what do you need, coffee or something, i was going to stop at a WaWa instead. I say YA, he Say's CVS doesn't' have coffee? SHIT! i can't even get my lies straight.
Now all i want to do is dilute whatever is in my system. so he pulls up to the WaWa, and now i am forced to get a coffee drink despite my recent need to stay away from coffee drinks temporarily.
I get a Hot chocolate/cappuccino.
I drink it quickly, I start to feel better.
We get to the location and it's part nursery and part machinery. lots of gravel, not many people around. and as soon as i spot the Photographer and his Makeup artist i am relieved.
Now I'm sure my water was not spiked. but hypothetically if it was, this is a risk i put myself in all the time. and part of me is glad that i am at the tail end of my modeling career/hobby.
and really only want to shoot with people i have already shot with.
I have gone 7 years without ever being harmed and being a small female around 100 lbs definatly makes me an easy target.
What was confirmed for me with this false alarm, was.
1. Always leave behind as much info as possible with a friend.
2. Always bring your own water/drink
3. Make sure you get specific location information
4. make sure you cell phone is charged
5. always bring a candy bar or a sports bar
6. Possibly bring an escort, as much as i feel they get in the way, at least have them drop you off and pick you up if at all possible.
Even the most experienced model is at risk for foul play not just the young newbies.
Constantine Gedal
This is more like a scary short tale that might put some thought in other models minds for safekeeping. and before i go further just know everything was more than fine. In fact the shoot was fantastic.
I have been going to photo shoots with out an escort for about 5 years or so now.
I always felt as if i chose to work with someone whom had a good reputation to lose it would somewhat protect me. By now i knew what red flags to look for when accepting to shoot or be in the confines of private places with strange men with cameras.
I also realize that the older we get the more mortal we become and sometimes our worst fears are manifested in our imagination.
I also try to make it a habit of leaving my boyfriend all the information of a shoot, Location, photographers name, email, phone number. unless it's with someone i have already established a working relationship with.
I recently agreed to do a shoot and accepted a third party/assistant driving me to the location.
Mind you i had not done any of the above as far as leaving info behind to cover my ass aside from leaving an email chain open, between myself and the photographer. So i left my BF sleeping in bed, with no idea of what location i was heading off to.
The assistant picked me up, he had a yellow rose on the dashboard, was very polite and handed me a bottle of cold water. we introduced ourselves and took off for about a 20/30 min drive to the location that was pretty much a mystery to me other than the town it was in.
I cracked the seal on the bottle and took a few sips even though i was not really thirsty.
and now that i think about it i usually accept drinks/beverages when offered as kind gesture by a polite photographer. Is it risky to accept anything from a stranger in the form of a beverage? Probably so.
About 20 mins into the drive i start to feel woozy in the bucket car seat i am in. i feel like i am sinking into it
My vision becomes slightly blurred, I have sunglasses on as well. my hearing gets muffled. All i know is i don't want to lose consciousness. The more i panic the worst it becomes.
My mind knows i am Hypoglycemic but i don't usually have any issues at 8:30 in the morning. and my blood sugar can't possibly that low, i ate pasta the night before.
I start to panic and my mind is searching for a viable reason on why i am losing control.
Fear sets in fast. all i can think of is that it's the few sips of water i took, i remember the seal crack but i guess that doesn't really mean shit. I imagine that i am being taken advantage of and that i will be buried alive and tortured, not in that order of course. Rape is the least thing that scares me. Knowing my boyfriend has no idea where i am and that i took the car to work to meet my ride is also a mystery to him, Hell he is still sleeping at home.
I also think of jumping out of a moving car. my attempts to shake it off and act normal seem to be working, he has no clue yet that what ever i drank is working.
I try to absorb as much land marks as possible to where my location seems to be heading. but i am not really in any condition to remember much, I spot a CVS in the distance and i say " hey can we stop at that CVS?
and he Say's why what do you need, coffee or something, i was going to stop at a WaWa instead. I say YA, he Say's CVS doesn't' have coffee? SHIT! i can't even get my lies straight.
Now all i want to do is dilute whatever is in my system. so he pulls up to the WaWa, and now i am forced to get a coffee drink despite my recent need to stay away from coffee drinks temporarily.
I get a Hot chocolate/cappuccino.
I drink it quickly, I start to feel better.
We get to the location and it's part nursery and part machinery. lots of gravel, not many people around. and as soon as i spot the Photographer and his Makeup artist i am relieved.
Now I'm sure my water was not spiked. but hypothetically if it was, this is a risk i put myself in all the time. and part of me is glad that i am at the tail end of my modeling career/hobby.
and really only want to shoot with people i have already shot with.
I have gone 7 years without ever being harmed and being a small female around 100 lbs definatly makes me an easy target.
What was confirmed for me with this false alarm, was.
1. Always leave behind as much info as possible with a friend.
2. Always bring your own water/drink
3. Make sure you get specific location information
4. make sure you cell phone is charged
5. always bring a candy bar or a sports bar
6. Possibly bring an escort, as much as i feel they get in the way, at least have them drop you off and pick you up if at all possible.
Even the most experienced model is at risk for foul play not just the young newbies.
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Im super happy your ok!