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Sad most day's recently, but I keep on trucking because what else can one do, give up?
Watching romantic comedies alone, playing with the dogs that i am grateful for.
crying, smoking, shopping beyond my means makes me happy.
After a lovely brunch with my best and only close friend, i was urged to shop, to keep myself out of the house, since my SO is at the SXSW.
I think i spent about $300 today on makeup, bras and a few clothes. I am still paying off my recent vacation so it wasn't really the responsible thing to do, but sometimes when your feeling like a Dot ( Stacy L's description ) it's necessary damn it!
trying to do laundry, and clean up the loft so i don't feel guilty for not being productive as well.
I browsed Match.com for the first time, I'm not entirely single yet, but i feel it. and they keep advertising that " It's Ok To Look" and oddly enough i found 2 people that i know on there. Being single Sucks, especially if your 37.
I felt sad seeing the people on there, there are so many people looking for someone to love and to love them back, and my So is so lucky to have someone that loves him in that way. He is BLIND, he has no idea that what he seeks he already has.
Why does it seem like Men jump through hoops to get " the GIRL" and once he gets her all he can do is concentrate on all the other women he doesn't have?
I don't want to be single, i want my SO to act RIGHT! To give me back what i give him emotionally. to just love me and stop treating me like I'm an anchor.
that seems to be a smaller possibility each day now.
anywhoo here is a self port shot from last week in Amsterdam.
of my Eye in AMsterdam get it...
Someone take me out to dinner this week, i hate eating alone, or just come with me, you don't need to pay for me i just want the company.
Sad most day's recently, but I keep on trucking because what else can one do, give up?
Watching romantic comedies alone, playing with the dogs that i am grateful for.
crying, smoking, shopping beyond my means makes me happy.
After a lovely brunch with my best and only close friend, i was urged to shop, to keep myself out of the house, since my SO is at the SXSW.
I think i spent about $300 today on makeup, bras and a few clothes. I am still paying off my recent vacation so it wasn't really the responsible thing to do, but sometimes when your feeling like a Dot ( Stacy L's description ) it's necessary damn it!
trying to do laundry, and clean up the loft so i don't feel guilty for not being productive as well.
I browsed Match.com for the first time, I'm not entirely single yet, but i feel it. and they keep advertising that " It's Ok To Look" and oddly enough i found 2 people that i know on there. Being single Sucks, especially if your 37.
I felt sad seeing the people on there, there are so many people looking for someone to love and to love them back, and my So is so lucky to have someone that loves him in that way. He is BLIND, he has no idea that what he seeks he already has.
Why does it seem like Men jump through hoops to get " the GIRL" and once he gets her all he can do is concentrate on all the other women he doesn't have?
I don't want to be single, i want my SO to act RIGHT! To give me back what i give him emotionally. to just love me and stop treating me like I'm an anchor.
that seems to be a smaller possibility each day now.
anywhoo here is a self port shot from last week in Amsterdam.
of my Eye in AMsterdam get it...
Someone take me out to dinner this week, i hate eating alone, or just come with me, you don't need to pay for me i just want the company.
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Sounds like some more fun is in order for you. Nothing like live music to take you away from it all. And the comraderie of the audience always serves to remind me that I am not alone in this world.
Not sure if this is up your alley but this Friday a Philly band I know Droppin Deuce is at the Lyon's Den (2nd and Christian, 848 S 2nd St). Great mix of fun, punk angst, and enough intellectualism to keep the skinheads away.
All my best wishes to you.
Being single at any age sucks, when you don't want to be single. I'm balanced on that thin line between wanting to be single, and really wanting to have someone special and important in my life.
Why does it seem like Men jump through hoops to get " the GIRL" and once he gets her all he can do is concentrate on all the other women he doesn't have?
There are quite a few women out there who do the same thing - I've been burned by a few of them. I don't know why these people are the way they are, but it sucks. Fortunately, there are also plenty of men and women who DO know how to appreciate what (or who) they have.
I'm still looking for mine, however.
For now, take the opportunity to get as much out of being single as you can. Spend some time living life on your own terms, with no compromise. Show life who's the boss!!
And if none of my advice helps, pet the puppies . . . "happiness is a warm puppy"