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Another Composite from Max V in Vegas.

So i feel like shit today, i have had 2.5 hours of sleep, had a cramp in my leg, then got insomnia, to then be hit by some stomach bug, crept in work around 11. I feel sick and exhausted.

I'm not really sure this time if i have a stomach flu or if stress has taken it's toll on me physically, and i say that because evertime i think of what is stressing me i get this burning pain in my stomach, now it could just be a combo or one or the other. if that is the case that sucks, isn't there a medical term like colitis...

I had a shoot in July in Seattle that got cancelled, so i asked Ant if he wanted to take the trip with me anyway to enjoy Seattle, since neither of us has been, also his little brother is having a Bachelor party road trip with his friends ages 20 something, to Toronto CA.
Since Gas Prices have skyrocketed i refuse to pay $400+ a person just for air. So now he is going on the Bachelor road trip, instead of an alternative trip with me, says he feels obligated, and it is a family thing that i wouldn't understand, due to i have no real formal family aside from my mother and sister , and some nieces and nephews i never see.
say's he feels guilty lying or not going since the Seattle trip is not an issue any longer.
so I tell him i am going to Jamaica by myself, i have already priced the trip for one. I would rather go with him but he has made it clear that his choice is finale, and he says i am only going for spite since i don't want him to go to CA, TRUE i don't want him to go to CA, i don't believe in Bachelor parties, and don't feel comfortable about what can happen on one long extended road trip. But i am not going to Jamaica for spite, i would like to go to a Spa retreat if i am going alone, but they are all in the middle of no where and i don't drive, so resorts are my options, and i already took the time off, and would like to do something nice with that time. so if 3 days on a beach is my option then why not.
so that is really causing some stress and back and forth bickering. and i keep hoping he will change his mind before i book my trip.

OCDF: 80%
No cravings today..