Saturday Feb 28, 2009

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Well the boyfriend also watched my video and didn't comment tongue
He informed me that its AWFUL lighting and it over accentuates me.... whatever
I think he is blinded by love (and sex) and that the video sadly does accurately depict me.
Ever since his comments I have been more reluctant in stating my weight.. I haven't even told him, in fact i haven't really told anyone besides my doctor in a few years.
I really appreciate everyone for taking the time to watch my video and especially thank those that actually dared to guess at my weight.
AND........
You were all WRONG!! tongue

I actually weigh

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ALOT!



Seriously. I am embarrassed just thinking about it in my head. puke

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SO.. I actually weight 214. yep. really... this "170 Max" Bullshit. Psh, thats what I WISH i weighed. I actually would like to just get down to 160 maybe.. I really don't want to attach a number to firmly to it because I don't want it to be about numbers. I want it to be about my health and reaching a point where I am healthy physically and mentally and happy with my appearance.

So theoretically I am going to keep doing these videos and also start to track what I am eating in a day...

Jaysin and I went grocery shopping yesterday and i did very well and stuck to my quite healthy shopping list and I ate breakfast at home today, skipped the coffee at work and took a healthy lunch.... but I guess tonight us and the roomies are ordering pizza... ::sigh::

But tomorrow is another day with Brad, my personal trainer and he kicks me ass and i love it.



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And on to something else...

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I am crazy about Jay. I have never had a man that I have felt so intimately connected with. He is the bestest cuddler snuggler ever. And as mentioned before he is so supportive. He reassures me exactly when I need it and hes the positive force thats been missing.
He also loves sushi. <3 And then we have really good conversations when were out to sushi and then i wanna jump his bones... duh.
Well thats that. I can't way too much cause hes known to read this stuff wink

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toez:
lol would you want to if we find one you're allowed into? i don't really care either way, i know the boys would enjoy it, and i've never been. but there are TONS of other things to do
toez:
oh i know it'll be a good day, that's not what i meant at all by that blog...honestly, i just got a little yucky cuz of different circumstances.

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