maudite

So.....what to say my past has come back to me. My first, my last, my heartbreak has returned to me. She says she wants me back, or is she just playing me for a fool. My love was hers, she refused it before will she do it again? Still afraid as I am my heart beats faster my mind is with her. Things are changed, thats for sure. She with two children, me searching for myself. Still I know I can't take care of her and her children. Still I want to. Instant family just add me, huh. I just wanted to play, phone sex mayhaps a weekend visit and the real thing, but I think she wants more. Do I still have LOVE for her, yes. Do I still want to love her, yes. But then again things change, but how?