mattybat

this is something that i wrote a while back...just wanted to share it.

the thoughts, the fighting, holding back.
your vampire bites infect me, fighting off this disease.
i can feel the consumption as it's swallowing me whole.
i always seem to fall, harder than everyone else.
fuck this consumption
fuck this comatose
i always let it affect me
i try to destroy and stop but it never falls through.
why must i be the one who is consumed?
why can't they ever fall?
i just wish to disintegrate, fade away to nothing.
disappear and let them be consumed by my erase from existence.