mattybat

confusion of the worse kind

i still love my ex very much and i know she loves me. but i'm talking to someone else. well, we both are. i think about her everyday, we do i guess plan on getting back together one day. we both feel that one day something will happen again. i keep thinking about how it will happen and when. confused...
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woo hoo!!!! my a7x shirts came in today!!!! it's my b-day gift to myself. yeah, that's it!!!! ahahahaha

lately, been very tired. started falling asleep today in history class. thank god i don't work today, but i have piano class later on tonight. i think i should take a nap...but don't really want to. other things to do than sleep. it's good but sometimes it's a waste of time.

tomorrow is my birthday!!!! woo hoo i'm no longer a teenager!!!! yeah...that's it. school and work needs some getting used to again. but, it's fun. philosophy seems like it'd be a cool class. yeah...well. yeah.

school starts on monday and i'm excited. everything has become so boring and repeatitive the past few weeks. hopefully i'll meet someone who will capture my eyes...

happy new years!!!!

i love the rainy weather...it kicks mucho ass!

kiss me kiss me kiss me
your tongue is like poison
so swollen it fills up my mouth

love me love me love me
you nail me to the floor
and push my guts all inside out

get it out get it out get it out
get your fucking voice
out of my head

i never wanted this
i never wanted any of this
i...
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another holiday, another day passed. it doesn't even feel like christmas this year. i think that it's better when you have someone. and new years, wow! another year has passed, no different from the rest. i wanna meet people and go out and stuff...

happy holidays!!!!