matt_organic

It's been a full week since my last entry. First off, my parents are splitting. Since I am currently living with them, this is causing stress beyond the usual anarchy of it all. I'm trying not to get involved while being there for both of them - but it's really hard to do that while not becoming a useful weapon for them to aim at each other. My dad has moved out already, which has lessened the conflict a bit but I can see this becoming very messy since they run a business together. My mum has gone to stay with friends for the weekend so the house is all mine right now, taking the opportunity to get my headspace away from the situation as much as possible.

Secondly, my work has thrust a large extra workload on top of me in the form of a bunch of new temps. I'm expected to help with their training while maintaining my own targets as before, and all this for no payrise - and still with no employment rights, being as I work for an job agency and am only routed through the department where I actually work every day. It's just not what I need right now, but I know from observation that anyone who stands up for themselves on my team ends up getting fired. I only have to hack it for a few more weeks hopefully, so it should be alright.

Last night I went out to my local club to see my friend Shaun and generally dance all the tension out of my system. This was done to some degree, although there arose another confusing situation with a young lady at the centre of it (as always). Basically I met her, a friend of Shaun's from Lancaster University, and got along really well. We ended up kissing but then she had to leave early because her friend was throwing a hissy fit. According to various accounts, this is because she either wanted me or the girl I was kissing. Maybe both? Who knows. Anyway, I was meant to meet up with her today but she's had to go back to Lancaster for pretty much the same reason she left the club. Why does everything have to be so complicated?

Oh, and I haven't even mentioned the fact that she's the ex-girlfriend of a guy I unknowingly made into a cuckold. He's gonna love me. Although all in all it gave me a chance to use the word 'cuckold', so I should be grateful for that at least.

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