Sup SG. Been some time since I wrote anything....

I have been having some troubles lately with drinking. To the stage where I am getting up in a morning and putting rum in my coffee. I had a good promotion at work, more money but much more work relying on my abilities. I suppose you could say its a little stressful, but its nothing I cant handle... provided I can get a drink.

Therein lies the problem. Its gotten to the stage where I am needing to drink, just to get to the office, at lunch time to see through me through the afternoon till I can finish and get to a pub. Its costing me money, friendships, braincells!

I decided to do something about this and go to see my GP. Who in turn referred me to a sort of AA group. It was a drugs and alcohol abuse support group. The moment I stepped into that room and saw the people sitting around me, I thought to my self I am nothing like these people.... am I? I can hold a job, I can look after myself and what little family I have, I dont feel it has the hold over me that it does them? Or maybe it does... becoming more dependant on getting a drink... is this what I have to look forward to? Will I crash and burn like they have?

I will continue to go to the meetings, though I am not sure what I have to gain from them. Time will tell on that one.

Anyone reading this, have you had troubles like this? Have you come out on top?