think i'll check out dinner and a movie tomorrow night. i need to get out more, sitting around this place alone isn't doing me any good. wonder if seth's coming home from philly this weekend... if not maybe i'll go see him. :skull
vicodin hangover. feeling shaky and tired, a little weak. another great start to a year. i don't want to work today, just want to sleep and ignore the rest of the world. went out last night, drank too much. feel tired today, and a little off. working tonight, then maybe hit up b&n for a new book, and spend the rest of the night reading. found out yesterday that jeremy is getting married in june. i wish i could go, but i'm sure most of his family wouldn't exactly welcome me. i don't really care to see... going to the dr. in the morning about my back. going to see if i can go back on effexor while i'm at it. i think it's necessary. i think other people saw it coming, but i didn't really want to. oh well... i think i'll talk to seth when he gets back from cali. i need to make a move or i'm done. maybe head west or something, see if he wants to come with me. i just think sometimes that i need to start from scratch. it's a year now since jenn and i split, and things are better in a lot of ways. it's just... feeling this weird sort of constant, underlying tension thing building. vacation was a bit of a wash, i need to do something. i mean really do something. just have to figure out what. getting to bored, and feel like i'm starting to ware a rut. i'm bored, and i don't want to go back to work tomorrow, or wednesday, or whenever it is that i go back. saw the movie 'lenny' the other night. lenny bruce biography w/ dustin hoffman. fucking excellent. if anybody reads these self-indulgent meanderings, i'd higlhy reccomend it. going to have to tell seth about it... picked up a book by dee dee ramone last night.... hell of a vacation, sitting around the apartment bored and getting sick. no place to go, and the brakes are shot in my car. think i'm going to read myself to sleep. three more days 'til vacation! the lars show was great. missed the boils and 3/4 of roger miret's set, though, which was a bit disappointing. ready for some time off now, even if i don't really get to go anywhere out of the ordinary. want to get some new music before the weekend. maybe cock sparrer or something, i'm not sure... make a trip out... went in off the clock this morning, ted and i did an ice sculpture for the party tonight. he got a case of corona, and i got a case of newcastle out of the deal. that's kind of nice. stopped for lunch at the new mexican place over on manheim pk., not bad but i think it'll be better once they've been up and running...