matt76

short day at work, started getting the herb garden ready to plant. made a york run, now i've gotta kill time 'til drink time.

dayshift tomorrow, then the ever redundant courtside lounge. the bartenders are cool, because they know us by now, but the crowd sucks. bunch of collegiate jizz-bags... should be good to get out though, i guess i need it. probably sleep the weekend away, i'm so beat lately. can't wait for my apartment to be ready.

so tired, got a total of maybe 2 1/2-3 hours of sleeep (fitful) now i'm up and babysitting travis until i go to work. just want to crash all day. worked it out yesterday so that i can go to the tiger army show. very much looking forward to that, other than the fact that i'll probably be attending alone. not much else, going to...
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most relaxing day i've had in forever. got stoned and enjoyed the rainy afternoon, then dozed off watching 'amalie'. great movie, so long since i've seen it. i guess it appeals to the romantic in me which refuses to die. things would be so much easier if it would... well, dinner at mom's tomorrow, and then another week to put in.

trying to settle in at erick and d.'s. going to be separated from my dog and parrot for a month. bums me out. sebastian, been my constant companion through thick and thin. sure he's just a dog, but he really is like a little furry version of me, and i hate not having him around. just want to get into my new place and start...
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this heinous bitch ex-girlfriend, who's been leeching off of me for the past year, had the audacity to wake me up at 8- in the morning to ask me to pick her up along the highway and drive her ass 40 minutes to work because her car broke down on the way home from fucking her new boyfriend who she's been seeing while still living...
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time for the regular friday night outing to the courtside lounge. got most of my shit out of here today, hopefully the rest will follow tomorrow. hate the whole moving process. hopefully getting out for a little while tonight will cheer me up, somewhat. just feeling tired, sad... hate how things don't work out.

went out, feel better. sometimes the littlest things can make your...
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moving weekend number one is upon me, i have every intention of getting all of my shit out of here by sunday. i told the albatross that i would leave my couch cushions for her to sleep on until she's out. it sounds if things are on track for the new place, but the wait still kind of sucks. found out that it's going to...
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ever feel like you're nothing more than a means to other peoples' ends?
songs:
social d.- making believe & king of fools
lars & basatards- the viking
disasters- i don't like you
there are more, but what's the use? i'm still just a fucking device.
waking up is the worst thing.

less than a week , and i'll crashing at erick and d.'s again. get my head straightened out and my shit together. hell, maybe i'll even be able to get some updated pics on here. i think i've lost about 30 fucking pounds since posting that ass-ugly picture of mysef. pass some time making my little page in this imaginary world a bit more current....
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