i think i'll talk to seth when he gets back from cali. i need to make a move or i'm done. maybe head west or something, see if he wants to come with me. i just think sometimes that i need to start from scratch. it's a year now since jenn and i split, and things are better in a lot of ways. it's just that there's so much residual crap in my mind that's connected to life here. i need to be closer to the ocean, i don't even care which one right now. puget sond is nice too... it seems like as long as i cling to this place, and the few friends i have here, i'll keep the same old wounds and the same old routines, etc. i need new people and a fresh start. or something. i don't know, i'm just sick of feeling like my brain is going to explode. fuck it, i'm whining and rambling. one or the other is bad enough. i have to cut this shit out. christ, what ever happened to fun?
man, i really sound like a jerk-off