went down to philly last weekend. hung out with seth, it was great. terminal market-port salut & baguette, marzipan, walked all over the city and talked. good to see him. realized while i was down there that i was missing melissa. since then i've tried to pay her more attention, be a little kinder. can't make a right move every move i make i'm 'rolling my eyes' everything i say i'have an attitude. what's the fucking use. she's not even talking to me right now and i didn't do anything to her. oh well, that's how it goes i guess. just when i think things are going well, i'm horribly wrong. look at what happened with the ex... anyway, what's the use in getting worked up? either everything will work out or it won't, doesn't really matter...
