most relaxing day i've had in forever. got stoned and enjoyed the rainy afternoon, then dozed off watching 'amalie'. great movie, so long since i've seen it. i guess it appeals to the romantic in me which refuses to die. things would be so much easier if it would... well, dinner at mom's tomorrow, and then another week to put in.
trying to settle in at erick and d.'s. going to be separated from my dog and parrot for a month. bums me out. sebastian, been my constant companion through thick and thin. sure he's just a dog, but he really is like a little furry version of me, and i hate not having him around. just want to get into my new place and start...
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receptionistdesk:
where is it that you're moving to in the city?
i'm going to see a place on market today...
i'm going to see a place on market today...
this heinous bitch ex-girlfriend, who's been leeching off of me for the past year, had the audacity to wake me up at 8- in the morning to ask me to pick her up along the highway and drive her ass 40 minutes to work because her car broke down on the way home from fucking her new boyfriend who she's been seeing while still living...
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time for the regular friday night outing to the courtside lounge. got most of my shit out of here today, hopefully the rest will follow tomorrow. hate the whole moving process. hopefully getting out for a little while tonight will cheer me up, somewhat. just feeling tired, sad... hate how things don't work out.
went out, feel better. sometimes the littlest things can make your...
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moving weekend number one is upon me, i have every intention of getting all of my shit out of here by sunday. i told the albatross that i would leave my couch cushions for her to sleep on until she's out. it sounds if things are on track for the new place, but the wait still kind of sucks. found out that it's going to...
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ever feel like you're nothing more than a means to other peoples' ends?
songs:
social d.- making believe & king of fools
lars & basatards- the viking
disasters- i don't like you
there are more, but what's the use? i'm still just a fucking device.
waking up is the worst thing.
songs:
social d.- making believe & king of fools
lars & basatards- the viking
disasters- i don't like you
there are more, but what's the use? i'm still just a fucking device.
waking up is the worst thing.
receptionistdesk:
such a good lars song
less than a week , and i'll crashing at erick and d.'s again. get my head straightened out and my shit together. hell, maybe i'll even be able to get some updated pics on here. i think i've lost about 30 fucking pounds since posting that ass-ugly picture of mysef. pass some time making my little page in this imaginary world a bit more current....
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funny story mmy ex-girlfriend, who is still living sith me rent free, as she has been for the past year, but is now dating some bass player from reading (while still living off of me) met one of the top 5 in my sg favorites list while out with said douche-bag boyfriend. i, on the otherhand, have been drowning myself in a haze of prescription...
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tori:
hrmm. this is all easier said than done. i'll always be there for my friends. i know that. it's a pain in my fuckin ass and most of them don't deserve it, but i have this weird hope in my mind that if i act like the friend that i want, perhaps it will catch on and they'll stop being so fuckin stupid.
most of my stress is the fault of my friends. i can't deal with it. but when i go to any of them for lies ("everything will be alright") and comfort (someone to drink with), it's some big hassle. so yeah. fuck my friends not having time to talk me out of my crazy notions. really now. they're the cause of most of my bullshit stress. gar.
maybe i need new friends?
and yeah. fuck emo. with a stick. in the mouth. i miss the whole scene. i love hardcore, but i do miss the good old street punk shows and what not. and again. just to reitterate. fuck emo.
most of my stress is the fault of my friends. i can't deal with it. but when i go to any of them for lies ("everything will be alright") and comfort (someone to drink with), it's some big hassle. so yeah. fuck my friends not having time to talk me out of my crazy notions. really now. they're the cause of most of my bullshit stress. gar.
maybe i need new friends?
and yeah. fuck emo. with a stick. in the mouth. i miss the whole scene. i love hardcore, but i do miss the good old street punk shows and what not. and again. just to reitterate. fuck emo.
tonight my intention is to get guinnessed out of my face, and watch the dropkick murphys dvd until i pass into sweet oblivion, maybe i'll throw in a touch of boondock saints just for good measure. within two weeks i'll be officially out of the gulag apartment and further along the way to my lovely new downtown domocile. fresh start, swearing off women for the...
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i can't wait to get out of this place, it's fucking toxic. my apartment in town should hopefully be ready by may, 1. for april i'll be transient, staying with erick and d. again i suppose. then downtown, and couldn't ask for a better place. just have to get through the next couple of weeks here...
fuck it
friday night, and shortly to be heading out for the usual. hoping that erick and d. won't spring jenni on me again. gotta start packing my things soon. looks as if the apartment i want might work out after all. great location. a block from market and the dipco, a block from the transcending flesh and 2 from the chameleon, walking distance to a.y.p. and...
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