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What do i wanna be remembered for? #bloghomework

Feb 23, 2016
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Thanks for this brilliant piece of homework, @missy @lyxzen @rambo!

It's not hard for me to answer that question, as i'm well known for clinging onto my dreams, no matter how unusual or impossible they appear to be. So the one thing i truly wanna be remembered for is to not ever have been stopped from going after what makes me happy by fear.

As a child i struggled with fear a lot, always had to make sure that i was overthinking everything twice, so i wouldn't hurt anyone or get myself in trouble. The thought of disappointing my mum was always the first one to pop into my head right after the idea of something slightly riskful had appeared. I sometimes even catch myself in the present while thinking wether my family or friends would approve of my decisions. But i know now that i have to fight this and just need to find out what i wanna do on an emotional basis.

That's what made me realize that i fell in a love with a girl for the first time, head over heels, half a year ago.

That i don't seem to ever wanna have kids of my own, or marry, or buy a huge house on the country side, with a loan higher than anything i'll ever be able to earn.

Instead i wanna live in a happy open relationship, become an amazing social worker with a masters degree, move to new york city no matter how hard that will be and just have the time of my life whenever i can.

Remember me for that, would you?

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matryoshka:
@manic amen, sister!
Feb 26, 2016
matryoshka:
@maxxxsuicide @goldi aww thanks 😘
Feb 26, 2016

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