mathilde74

A very, very bad week end. I spend my all time in bed, suffering and sleeping. It was a long long time ago I did not feel so bad.

Friday, I went to the doctor for work. Once a year in France you have to see a doctor (work medecine) to see if you are able to work. This fuckin bitch begins to ask me if my parents are in good health. I told my father died by suicide.

Ok I was in the case depressed girl with a dead father".

She explains me I had to stop pills against depression and make a therapy.
I try to explain "Imagine you can't go out, you are full of phobic, you suffer physically all the time and pills stop all that shit, do you really think I want to stop?

She doesn't know what to say.

Then she said I was bad and there were signs to see it ; I cry all the time (bitch you only see me during 20 minutes), I was overweighed (and your bullshit isn't overweight ?) and I smoke too much.

She also tells me 4 years ago I was anorexic because I was very very thin. I try to explain I have an illness, I cant eat because it makes my stomach painful but she doesn't listen to me.


I was too bad to tell anything; it is better because I know I can beat her. I saw some pity when she knew my father committed suicide and I can not stand that shit.

But anyway... today is a new day

Here are some pics from Japan. Maybe I will go again in Japan in August ; I have to see who can come with me. Just have a look in my folder pics to see all pics.

Golden House in Kyoto





Nara : Todai Ji



It is so strange to see so many swastikas.



Ryozen Kannon in Kyoto : Kannon is a goddess



Bonzai in Kyoto



Bamboos



Nara



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