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GOOD THING HAPPENED TO ME TODAY

i kind of reconciled with an ex friend who i had lost hope on being friends with again. it's funny what a hello, a smile and a
pic can do.

i met her aug. of last year at work, where i currently work on the weekends. we became inseparable. it was the kind of friendship that for some reason feels like a bf-gf relationship, but isn't(don't know if you ever experienced one but...). we were kids playing in a sandbox. worry-free. with no memory of the world as if only her and i existed. but...spring ended prematurely. in jan. to be exact. everything went downhill and it became a sort of love/hate relationship. i think it was the effect of being each others shadows all the time.

for months we tried to work it out, but it seemed like everything we did to come closer only pushed us farther apart. it was obvious we cared and still wanted to be friends, but there were too many misunderstandings happening. it seemed as if we were playing games. finally, i confronted her. i told her i was tired of the games and that if we were gonna be friends still, all this had to stop. i wanted a healthy friendship.

we stayed friends, but nothing got better. i gave up on her and thought she gave up on me after, but i was wrong. we didn't talk from mid june to aug

THE TURNOVER.Note: i see her every weekend at my weekend job. we're co-workers.

in the beginning of sept. she began to be cool with me again. she would say hi, smile and be nice to me. in response, i would do the same. but only then. otherwise i didn't direct a word at her. she began to send me FWD emails about friendship, values and god. that last one read at the end:
TO REALIZE THE VALUE OF A FRIEND, LOSE ONE.meanwhile i had developed a roll of film, which happened to have the only pic of us together. she took it at a concert we went to in june in one of those attempts to make things better. the band we went to see(Enanitos Verdes) was responsible for the birth of our friendship.

today, at work obviously, i gave her a copy of thatpicture of us. i told her "i got you something i thought you might want to have." when she opened the envelope and saw the pic, she got excited and happy. "of course i'd want to have this" she said. we talked for a while. i asked her about those emails, 'cause i thought she had forgotten to delete my address since we didn't talk anymore(besides both of us hate FWDs so that made it more strange), but she said no. she did mean to send them to me. honestly, didn't know wether to believe her hapiness about the pic., but later on i caught her showing the pic to her coworker friend(who knows every detail of what happened between us) very excited. when i saw the coworker friend she smiled at me as if saying "about time you guys stop kidding yourselfs". that's funny. i do want to be her friend, but i'm gonna take it slow and give us space.

i'm happy about that but i feel like shit 'cause my BEST FRIEND feels like shit. she's going through a rough time.