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Monday Jan 30, 2006

Jan 30, 2006
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I think I may actually enjoy doing what I'm going to school for - crazy idea - I know. Today I did some good work and I feel good about it. It's odd, working with your hands when you've been groomed to be an "academic".

But liking what you do doesn't always chase away the sickness, the anxiety that leaks into every aspect of my life. It's becoming very hard to live with again. Very difficult. I think that I'm having another "episode" of it. Last time arond, I was 19 and I had a hell of a time. It lasted years. Unfortunately I think it's coming back.
Yeah so "there that is."
gitta:
But liking what you do doesn't always chase away the sickness....

I have got to find a way to start liking what I do. How do you do it?

I bet you'll get through it easier this time cause you have that past to draw on...

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