Selfishly absorbed ranting ahead:
Over the past week I've had multiple experieces that people have praised me for. A coworker said he really appriciated me and a customer was praising about me to another associate.. yet.. I feel like I'm a terrible person, still. That no one can stand being around me much. That I'm not worth appriciating. That the whole world may as well collapse around me because I'm no use to it.
I want to make a difference somewhere. With something I'm passionate about. I just don't have the intelligence or resources to do it. Pleasing people isn't enough for me. Maybe I'm too hard on myself. I don't know. I just feel worthless. Ugly. Etc.
I hate how a wonderful day can turn sour so fast for no reason other than I looked in the mirror, heh.
/sigh
In other news, I had a dream about EQII last night.
Over the past week I've had multiple experieces that people have praised me for. A coworker said he really appriciated me and a customer was praising about me to another associate.. yet.. I feel like I'm a terrible person, still. That no one can stand being around me much. That I'm not worth appriciating. That the whole world may as well collapse around me because I'm no use to it.
I want to make a difference somewhere. With something I'm passionate about. I just don't have the intelligence or resources to do it. Pleasing people isn't enough for me. Maybe I'm too hard on myself. I don't know. I just feel worthless. Ugly. Etc.
I hate how a wonderful day can turn sour so fast for no reason other than I looked in the mirror, heh.
/sigh
In other news, I had a dream about EQII last night.
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