maryjane

well, the ultra sound was a no go. the vets want to do an exploratory on my precoius stimpy cat. we suspect intestinal lymphoma or cancer of some sort. an ultrasound would not reveal that unless it was a large mass, which would also show up on an x-ray which i have already taken and saw nothing. Stimpy has not been eating very well at all these last few days and she has been puking too. i am so worried about her. i am almost certain it is cancer of some type. i have never lost an animal to cancer in my life, but i guess there might be a time soon. i just can't believe it until we do a biopsy of anything that looks strange when we do the surgery, and then i will let her live until her quality of life goes down (the instant it goes down) and i will put her to sleep. it is not fair for me to make her suffer throgh chemo, only for her to live a shitty 6 months that will make her feel worse than the cancer itself, just because i don't want to say goodbye. chemo is a horrible thing for animals and pepole to go through. i realize it works for people sometimes, but it does not work a lot of the time for pets. not only that, but many of the pets live a terrible life once they recieve chemo and feel worse than they did when they first got sick. of course, that is not always the case, but it is most of the time. i am so sad. my momma called me last night and we just sat on the phone and cried. stimpy is her eldest "granchild". she can't believe that she is sick. i hope this is not cancer and just some old-cat weight loss thing, but the likelihood is slim. poor stimpy, precoius, baby kitty, lovey lamb. please send good vibes to her, anyone who cares. she and i would both be so grateful. have a groovy day, and i'll try to have one too, MaryJane