Saturday Dec 07, 2002

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well, i got my head out of the clouds long enough to write a journal entry. tonight is my christmas party for one of my jobs, it should be fun. i really like all of the people i work with.


so, im a little lonely these days, i get in these weird moods accompanied by uncomfortable feelings. reminiscent of my childhood perhaps? thats almost how it feels- like a scary or yucky time when i was a child. i dont like this at all, i want it to stop. im sure things will get better soon. i have been taking yoga though and i feel wonderful afterwards, but the feeling goes away after a while. i want my groovy self back, the one that saw the good in everything and smiled a lot more. i feel so lame today, i havent cuddled in a really long time. i need some human contact, hippies love that shit, and im being deprived, thats no good for a cuddly hippie like me. oh well, my friends are around, i can hug them, but its not the same as laying in a bed or on the couch with a blanket, cuddling to my hearts content with someone who loves cuddling as much as i do. unhappy hippies are like oxymorons, i better snap out of this right away. miao!! i like the new smileys. puke hah hah, i like gross humor
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lionboy:
Hey! I'm a vet tech too! I crave crave crave hyoomin contact. I'm lucky to have found friends that love affection as much as I do. We will sit on the couch and snuggle together watching TV or sitting noggin to noggin just talking for hours. Perhaps not that long but you get the picture. It's all so very inappropriate. ^_^ I am actually relocating from New England to Ohio to be with them. I have no one here with whom I can touch souls and without that sort of contact I start to go a bit koo-koo after a while. My depression worsens I withdraw into myself... It is not pretty.
Hmmm... I am an experienced soul spelunker and I'm thinking you may want to pay attention to those uncomfortable feelings. They may have something important to tell you about yourself and life. Could be important. Just a thought... Nice to meet you, btw. I'm new here. ^_^
muckhead:
Yo, I highly suggest a book called "The Power of Now." It really helped me realize and get away from living in the past and/or future. Both of which only seemed to lead to anxiety and depression for me. It's heavily based on Buddhist philosophy but written in a much more understandable way. There is also a book that goes along with it that gives practices that you can do to keep you living in the here and now and leaving the mind behind (which seems to ramble too much unnecessary crap) and live through the heart. Is that hippie enough for ya, babe? LOL
Yeah, I may be short haired now but after I reached over 100 Grateful Dead shows in the late 80s I stopped counting.

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