You make me feel ugly with your resistance to me
WHen you watch me there is something bitter in your glare
Or am I just so self indulgent that I am manifesting emotion where there is none?
You look at me with the absentmindedness of a person who is fixated upon a well known rerun or a repetitive screensaver
Do you just want to cover the bare space on the walls with me?
No, I am not fair enough to keep purely for ornamental purposes.
I don't think you're interested in keeping me at all; even if you don't know it
I believe I was flattering myself with delusions of your resistance; it's less than that
It's nothing
I'm not even angry; not anymore
after all, there's no cure for nothing.
That was emotionally exhausting followed by a strange numbness I wonder if this feeling will leave. I no longer know what I want or even that I want anything at all. I know that sounds angsty but it's how i don't feel.
WHen you watch me there is something bitter in your glare
Or am I just so self indulgent that I am manifesting emotion where there is none?
You look at me with the absentmindedness of a person who is fixated upon a well known rerun or a repetitive screensaver
Do you just want to cover the bare space on the walls with me?
No, I am not fair enough to keep purely for ornamental purposes.
I don't think you're interested in keeping me at all; even if you don't know it
I believe I was flattering myself with delusions of your resistance; it's less than that
It's nothing
I'm not even angry; not anymore
after all, there's no cure for nothing.
That was emotionally exhausting followed by a strange numbness I wonder if this feeling will leave. I no longer know what I want or even that I want anything at all. I know that sounds angsty but it's how i don't feel.
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uncaringmachine:
Well, if you want a friend I can point you in the direction of a couple really nice girls in your area. Just lending a helping hand, if you want it. And my fantasy. I know, right?
argon:
hi, I am also from iowa city. Did you recently move here? My self and a couple of iowa city girls are planning to get together some time. Coffee or lunch or something. Would you be interested in hanging out with other SG ladies some time?