mary

when a person has decided to be mute for so long it is not always easy to make a sound come out. but suddenly here i am creating a journal on SG for the first time. those who've been around a while know this is a strange thing. the simplest explanation is that from the beginning i never wanted to be considered famous for my image, i wanted it to be for something unique and intelligent and personal that i DID or created. i thought if i let myself get really involved in this , it might make me wonder someday whether or not any success i may have was coming from a source that i wanted it to come from. now i see it alittle differently, it seems that by not keeping a journal i am sending out "just an image" even more!! at least if you are going to be known, its nice to be known a bit more for who you are, i think.
so hello, i am mary. ive already put a bunch of my interests in neat little boxes. like i said im not so sure how to go about expressing myself to the world, but i love to write, so eventually, hopefully, it will fall into place.
ecstasy of the day so far: woke up spooning my cat swami, only to discover that swami was also spooning my other cat kiwi. it was like we all did the "locomotion" in our sleep.
shit of the day so far: i am in one of those spacy places in my head where i wander around my apartment, washing a dish, getting over it, looking at the laundry pile for 3 minutes. then turning and moving on. picking up the book i am reading and realising im not in the mood after a few pages, etc.
the hours keep on truckin.