mary

sometimes when i need to be at my most productive and focused, i get irritated at all that i expect from myself and, ungracefully, bow out. right now i should be wrapping up the tail end of my monstrous art school application process but the whole thing just has been on my shoulders so long i feel like doing nothing at all about it. instead ive created a little nook in which to be a procratinating hedonist...bags of prepopped popcorn (cause its too much damn work to pop em myself), piles of subtitled movies and invader zim episodes, notebooks on which to make lists i do not intend to follow through with, books of short stories so that i do not even have to have an attention span. i had a two hour conversation with my best friend on the phone, and walking her through the cooking process of sauteed zuccini was about the most important thing i did all day. Swami is of course benefitting from all my laying around...she gets everything she wants as long as she hangs out with me, being warm and fat and nonjudgemental about my laziness...shes mad at me right now though becasue theres no room on my lap and shes scratching the chair, meowing, and wiggling as though to jump up, and then just staring at me in irritation...hahaha. sorry baby, these folks might be mad at me for not being up on my journal....
happy new year! im personally really glad 2005 is over. it wasnt a terribly exciting year for me...2004 i was all over europe, and living in hawaii, and this year i am leaving the country and finishing a whole load of art, and becoming a full-time student...(yikes)....and living back out in italy. but 2005 was like pudding. not bad, but not the kind of dessert you crave...at all.
heres to a new one, and hopefully i'll get out of this progress-slump in enough time to send out my application on time. and i hope all of you find exciting things to do this year too.....