martyr13

here is the new pic...by the way...

you know....
its funny sometimes to me...
how sometimes the greatest distance to a common ground ..
between two people..is often through the shortest and most common of points...

when is it wrong to raise your hand and say..." oh oh pick me...i know the answer....or at least the one that works for me....maybe it can help you......"

thats all...
it just kinda depresses me sometimes...
to share a love with with someone...
in something...
and no matter how close the viewpoint is...
it sometimes seems the goal is different...

i love her...
i love what she does...
i just want her to be here..
and loving me, and what i do....
if it is at all possible...

but i would beg, borrow, steal, and kill to make it happen....

i guess that sometimes even a limitless bank account of feelings and emotion ....
bounces a check here and there..


oh well....
its still well worth the deposit...


i love her a metric ton...
no shit...
i weighed it..
ahahhaha

if it doesn't happen....
i will once again..
quote modest mouse...

" i didn't go to work for a month...
i didn't leave my bed for eight days...straight...
i haven't hung out with anyone.....
if i did.....i'd have nothing to say..
whenever i breathe out...your breathing in....
positive and negative..."

but still i have to say..i feel damn luck to have found someone that i feel so bonded to in so many ways as to want to understand them better. that is a true rarity.