marty_512

Same Shit Different Toilet

been stuck here for days, peering at the stars, trying to find a way, to get out of this place, and find peace in the night, dragging my feet on the concrete, walking nowhere at all.
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the pins stuck in my eyes
from thoughts of being pressed between those thighs
there is no reason that you make me feel so high
cause the other...
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Respect my feelings, it is so fucking stupid how you play with my emotions and tear my heart apart. I try to give you my all and you just pull me down and stomp on my feelings. I hate to be like this but this shit needs to change. All this bullshit is getting old. I hate you and it all. I can't belive that...
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Music: Tool


What a beautiful day. Each day comes to a close and we are closer and closer of being together again. Seeing your face, being embraced in your touch. The time is comming near. I just can't wait to be in that state again. Thinking of the good ol' days. Like when we would walk through the park for hours or when we would...
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My friends are so beautiful.
Enjoying company.............

Well after sleeping all day, i am having a great night. Went to Adv. baking class and that was awesome we made some puff pastrys. SO beautiful outside it makes me not want to study. Fucking mother nature haha. Well gonnna go for a long drive even though i am not supposed to.

4:52am i am still fucking up. I can't sleep. I just sit and lie awake staring at the celing. I don't know why? Pushing sleep dep further and further each night i don't know how i keep up with myself and my schedule. Focused on nothing but being in a better place. So many concerns about being here and you being there, it tears me...
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I miss kissing you.
I miss holding you.
I miss talking to you.
I miss your smile.
I miss your touch.
I miss your love.

I don't know how i am living without you it seems like each day it's getting harder. Waiting to be in your arms again, so i feel like something instead of nothing. I hate feeling like this but looking back...
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Let them say it's wrong for me to love you. They could never feel the way that I do when we kiss, when we're close like this. They can't see inside my soul. They can't know the love we know. All they do is waste their time, they can never change my mind. It's what my heart says that's what I listen to. It's what...
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On the brink of insanity nothing seems to satisfy me anymore. Resorting to violence and heavy drug use and drinking has now built a tollerece. I can't find anything to help me keep sane. Music has been helping but i just doens't seem to do the trick. Oh god why me? Why am i put through this tourment and hell? Torture me with your games...
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