honestly i'm sick of everything. i like my job and what i do for a living but i feel there is so much more for me. I never seem satisfied. I am 100% in love with this girl and i hang with her everynight and whenever i have free time. we always cuddle and hold each other, stupid shit like that, but something doesn't feel right. we've been friends for so long. i honestly don't want to fuck that up. i feel if i do make the move that in the end i will fuck our relationship all up. but it seems like she wants me. i'm going fucking crazy. i hope my head gets straight really soon, cause i can't take much more of this madness. FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK! 