Time:1:00am
Music:Thursday
My internet has been down for a few days, it would disconnect everytime i got on Internet Explorer. Fuck it, i hope it's back now. But anyways i haven't been in the best of moods the past week. I have been stuck in this rut and feeling depressed and down all the time. I need someone to make me feel okay with my innerslef. Matt and Kristen broke up for good but she isn't ready to date anyone yet. I don't know what to do with myself. I have been talking to this kid Travis, i just met and he has 1 inch plugs. he is really cool. I talked him into talking to his friend who is a drummer and i think that tomorrow we are gonna jam out. He rocks. I can't belive he has an inch, that is the only person who has bigger plugs than me and he is only 16 or 17. But he gave me a pair of 7/8 plugs, i have one in my left ear and i am still streaching out the other. I can't wait to have an inch myslef.
Tonight, Matt, Kristin, and I went to this kids house and he was having a bon fire. We sat there and drank a 40 together and then he had to kick us out becuase he had to work in the morning. I guess that i have been so depressed lately becuase of being alone and that i don't have a job yet and my parents are constantly on my case. I am at an all time low right now. I can't concentrate anymore and can't sleep properly. I wish i could slip out of this depression. I was having a deep conversation with Kristin earlier tonight and she said she really cherishes ever knowing me and she says that i am the only one with my shit together and that I am so beautiful and looks to me for guidence and strength. But i need her support as much as she needs mine. I am really stressed out about being alone and shit. I hate it. But whatever i will get over this shit sometime and hopefully i will get a job soon and start over again. Fuck the world because the world fucked me.
Music:Thursday
My internet has been down for a few days, it would disconnect everytime i got on Internet Explorer. Fuck it, i hope it's back now. But anyways i haven't been in the best of moods the past week. I have been stuck in this rut and feeling depressed and down all the time. I need someone to make me feel okay with my innerslef. Matt and Kristen broke up for good but she isn't ready to date anyone yet. I don't know what to do with myself. I have been talking to this kid Travis, i just met and he has 1 inch plugs. he is really cool. I talked him into talking to his friend who is a drummer and i think that tomorrow we are gonna jam out. He rocks. I can't belive he has an inch, that is the only person who has bigger plugs than me and he is only 16 or 17. But he gave me a pair of 7/8 plugs, i have one in my left ear and i am still streaching out the other. I can't wait to have an inch myslef.
Tonight, Matt, Kristin, and I went to this kids house and he was having a bon fire. We sat there and drank a 40 together and then he had to kick us out becuase he had to work in the morning. I guess that i have been so depressed lately becuase of being alone and that i don't have a job yet and my parents are constantly on my case. I am at an all time low right now. I can't concentrate anymore and can't sleep properly. I wish i could slip out of this depression. I was having a deep conversation with Kristin earlier tonight and she said she really cherishes ever knowing me and she says that i am the only one with my shit together and that I am so beautiful and looks to me for guidence and strength. But i need her support as much as she needs mine. I am really stressed out about being alone and shit. I hate it. But whatever i will get over this shit sometime and hopefully i will get a job soon and start over again. Fuck the world because the world fucked me.
oh yeah i want to rape deron miller SOOO badly.
hahah i jsut noticed you took out the pic of us with clint! awesome.
[Edited on Jun 06, 2004 9:09PM]