martini79

ok, i normally dont go emo, but being so close to the holidays it always hits me hard, so lets start with my emo rant.

This is the second holiday i'm spending alone. yes i have family surounding me and i have gone to some parties but i feel like i have no real connection with anyone. this year is especially bad cause my two friends are now engaged. It's kinda like a realization that i am alone with no one by my side. yeah, i sound like a little bitch right now, but you know what a years worth of being a tough guy deserves on day of thought spilling. I'm not so bad that i'm gonna cut myself or anything, i just feel empty. you know i have all these toys and no one to share it with.

ok, rant done i'm gonna go now and sob in the corner... lol...