Thursday Sep 29, 2005

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depression is fun. makes you not want to eat anything with any nutritonal value (re: cookies for breakfast). makes you not want to be around the only people who could possibly make you feel better (re: considering not going out tonight). makes you loathe every second you are here (re: spend a day living with these people!). makes you think.. think.. thinking is over-rated.. makes you wonder if that feeling of cold metal running down your arm is really going to make a difference other than making you feel amazingly at peace for 23 seconds...

test today in french..school is seriously getting to me already.. last year i made a pact with my mother to complete that year and then i could do what i wanted.. why i ended up back at school is beyond me..

then i'm heading downtown with my girls..like every thursday night.. this time, however, i will not stray, get drunk and piss my night/day away..

have a good one.

*peace*

ps. if i do not at least kiss Mark Matkevich ( i would SO much rather be his haha) before i die... i will be sad

pps. i believe my father's fax machine may be possessed by the devil..or at least a spirit who thinks it's being funny.
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nalar:
I actually had a post about being depressed about a month ago I think... my comment on it was that I strangely enjoy it since it's so it's so infrequent for me anymore. Weird take, I know. I have all the same side-effects as you... not wanting to be around my best friends, and just wanting to chill alone, or go for a long drive and get lost on purpose. tongue

Then I listen to the Smiths, and I feel better for some odd reason. I'm weird.

Regardless, everyone has their downtimes, and if it really bothers you, I'm sure you'll get closer to either discovering what ails you or what is needed to resolve it. That's typically the order I go in. tongue
hydrophilic:
okay so.. if distance isn't an issue, i have free time all the time, so now what?

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