martini

you know what? i now remember why this house bothers me so much. aside from all of the tension between my mother and i or my 13 year old sister..everything about this house makes me think about all of the mistakes i've made and losses i've experienced since we bought it.
i have had 4 romances either blossom and fizzle or just plain fizzle in this house and i've only lived here for a year and a half.
this house simply reminds me that i am doomed to spend eternity searching for "the one".. who doesn't exist obviously..
i need to move out.. i don't feel this way at michy's. i don't think about these things because that couch over there.. the carpet in my bathroom.. the basement..etc.. none of these things are THERE.
i need to get out...

sorry.. sometimes a girl just needs to rant.

off i go to wash out the bleach in my hair..

*peace*