So for the last three weeks I've been enjoying my own minature Nick Leeson moment. I made one tiny little mistake which potentially could have cost 28,000.00, this is pretty much instant showing you the door money these days. The current climate does not look kindly on risk related fuck ups. So mosty I've been doing my best to get it sorted out with out anyone finding out about the black hole there. The defence of someone else actually did it, though true, sadly wouldn't work as it happend.
So all fixed skin of teeth job etc. I'm amazed about how cavilier I've been about it over the last couple of weeks. I've been on annual leave over the last week so I've had plenty of thinking time on my hands working out mostly what would happen next if I got fired, when I went back into work on Monday. My current employer has a good system set up in place to encourage what it refers to as development, but translates as encourages you to take on extra duties in addition to your normal ones. There's the carrot of bonuses and a decent raise dangled on the end of this.
So with the thinking time last week I have had I've rapidly been considering options if yesterday it had all gone wrong and I'd been shown the door. I've come to the conclusion that it wouldn't have been the end of the world if it happened. I have definately moved towards really disiking my job and feeling really disengaged and generally un-appreciated by my employer.
To thatend I've been giving some considerable consideration to just handing in my notice and walking. Pretty drastic but I have this confirmed resolution that my days are too precious to be wasted doing something I don't enjoy for an employer that value me. Not exactly sure what I will do next. Searching for stuff elsewhere will progress, I know jumping ship isn't the smart move without something to jump too.
The temptation to going fuck you and retaining some self respect it too great. Really can't make my mind up what to do.
So all fixed skin of teeth job etc. I'm amazed about how cavilier I've been about it over the last couple of weeks. I've been on annual leave over the last week so I've had plenty of thinking time on my hands working out mostly what would happen next if I got fired, when I went back into work on Monday. My current employer has a good system set up in place to encourage what it refers to as development, but translates as encourages you to take on extra duties in addition to your normal ones. There's the carrot of bonuses and a decent raise dangled on the end of this.
So with the thinking time last week I have had I've rapidly been considering options if yesterday it had all gone wrong and I'd been shown the door. I've come to the conclusion that it wouldn't have been the end of the world if it happened. I have definately moved towards really disiking my job and feeling really disengaged and generally un-appreciated by my employer.
To thatend I've been giving some considerable consideration to just handing in my notice and walking. Pretty drastic but I have this confirmed resolution that my days are too precious to be wasted doing something I don't enjoy for an employer that value me. Not exactly sure what I will do next. Searching for stuff elsewhere will progress, I know jumping ship isn't the smart move without something to jump too.
The temptation to going fuck you and retaining some self respect it too great. Really can't make my mind up what to do.
If I may, I was in a similar job a few years ago. Best thing I ever did was getting out of that place.