I'm trying to keep cheerful, I really am. I just wish people wouldn't spend all their time ignoring me, telling me I'm 'nice' (BECAUSE GIRLS DO NOT WANT NICE MEN) or rubbing their fabulous kissy-kissy relationships in my face.
As a result, I am burying my head in horror; by that, I mean, you know, 'horror' - Films and stories. It helps for some reason; Catharsis in F.E.A.R is good - nothing like snapping a neck or two when you've had a bad day. Not that I'm going Norman Bates; the visual imagery is disturbing, but it somehow helps with my occasional pain. Maybe I sound sorry for myself, but I'm pretty sure I'm not.I just find horror movies help so that I don't spend my time feeling sorry for myself, because feeling sorry for yourself is just...ugh. Demoralising. It shows you've hit rock bottom. I also find alcohol helps on occasion, although on others it doesn't because I just end up weeping copiously into people's shoulders and make an arse of myself. Hm. Still, I have a great idea for a horror story
A friend of mine said 'You have to deal with not being in a relationship, relationships come and go'. Yeah, I know. BUT I DON'T KNOW HOW. Nobody seems to be able to help me...
The other night, my friend Chloe was trying to prevent me from pulling someone. I asked why. She told me it wasn't like me and she didn't want me to make a mistake. I wasn't randomly grabbing someone, but I have lately developed a crush on a sweet Irish girl I wanted to dance with. That was it. So I can't even do THAT anymore, because I've got a reputation to keep up.
BTW, have you seen the Silent Hill trailer? It's awesome!
Silent Hill trailer
As a result, I am burying my head in horror; by that, I mean, you know, 'horror' - Films and stories. It helps for some reason; Catharsis in F.E.A.R is good - nothing like snapping a neck or two when you've had a bad day. Not that I'm going Norman Bates; the visual imagery is disturbing, but it somehow helps with my occasional pain. Maybe I sound sorry for myself, but I'm pretty sure I'm not.I just find horror movies help so that I don't spend my time feeling sorry for myself, because feeling sorry for yourself is just...ugh. Demoralising. It shows you've hit rock bottom. I also find alcohol helps on occasion, although on others it doesn't because I just end up weeping copiously into people's shoulders and make an arse of myself. Hm. Still, I have a great idea for a horror story
A friend of mine said 'You have to deal with not being in a relationship, relationships come and go'. Yeah, I know. BUT I DON'T KNOW HOW. Nobody seems to be able to help me...
The other night, my friend Chloe was trying to prevent me from pulling someone. I asked why. She told me it wasn't like me and she didn't want me to make a mistake. I wasn't randomly grabbing someone, but I have lately developed a crush on a sweet Irish girl I wanted to dance with. That was it. So I can't even do THAT anymore, because I've got a reputation to keep up.
BTW, have you seen the Silent Hill trailer? It's awesome!
Silent Hill trailer