Hi there.
Well, it's been a while.
I am not exaggerating when I say that the last three weeks have been the worst of my entire life. I haven't been in the mood for posting anything.
It all began at a party. My girlfriend and my parents weren't getting on, I couldn't cope with the tug of war, got VERY drunk...and had sex with a girl I met at a party. Not being a dishonest shit, I confessed all. It took a while to patch things up - and we're okay now. But it was touch and go there.
As well as bearing the cross of my guilt (yes I did deserve it - I was a fucking idiot), I had to cope with the constant taunting of my peers in drama - 'So, what about you and ****, eh?' - and them getting shocked when I told them I confessed.
Then came the scare; I can't even write it down, but lets just say, something happened that scared me - although it all turned out okay. I don't want to have to say it. But it's all okay.
Me and this girl are barely talking - in fact, we're both doing very good impressions of people who don't know each other slightly. I don't think she told her boyfriend (double trouble). Maybe I should feel better because of that.
It's only recently I've come to find some kind of peace, and sleep properly. Before? I felt dirty and ashamed, I couldn't look my friends in the eye...now I'm okay.
I think I found some peace. I'm not expecting sympathy exactly, but maybe just some kind of acceptance. I guess that's it. I still love SG, but I just couldn't put finger to keyboard, as it were.
*breathes out*
Right. That's that then.
Christmas is looking good; I think I might have the Christmas I want, something I'm grateful for
Merry Christmas, all!
Well, it's been a while.
I am not exaggerating when I say that the last three weeks have been the worst of my entire life. I haven't been in the mood for posting anything.
It all began at a party. My girlfriend and my parents weren't getting on, I couldn't cope with the tug of war, got VERY drunk...and had sex with a girl I met at a party. Not being a dishonest shit, I confessed all. It took a while to patch things up - and we're okay now. But it was touch and go there.
As well as bearing the cross of my guilt (yes I did deserve it - I was a fucking idiot), I had to cope with the constant taunting of my peers in drama - 'So, what about you and ****, eh?' - and them getting shocked when I told them I confessed.
Then came the scare; I can't even write it down, but lets just say, something happened that scared me - although it all turned out okay. I don't want to have to say it. But it's all okay.
Me and this girl are barely talking - in fact, we're both doing very good impressions of people who don't know each other slightly. I don't think she told her boyfriend (double trouble). Maybe I should feel better because of that.
It's only recently I've come to find some kind of peace, and sleep properly. Before? I felt dirty and ashamed, I couldn't look my friends in the eye...now I'm okay.
I think I found some peace. I'm not expecting sympathy exactly, but maybe just some kind of acceptance. I guess that's it. I still love SG, but I just couldn't put finger to keyboard, as it were.
*breathes out*
Right. That's that then.
Christmas is looking good; I think I might have the Christmas I want, something I'm grateful for
Merry Christmas, all!
i'm not gonna say not to worry about what you did, because it was definately wrong (i've been in your girlfriend's shoes and it sucks) but it was very cool of you to be honest and take responsibility for patching things up. a lot of people don't have the courage to do that and just take off. i'm glad to hear things are getting better, though, and hope that your holiday makes up for the last couple weeks.