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Today was a great day..i was a busy bumble bee..went with my friend Maria to the bmw dealership,went and did a bit of shopping for food for my niece and nephew,went to my friend Maria's work with her at a local bar and the owner spoke to me about possibly being a barback for the bar, i filled out a job application for the bar and all the girls who work there said they'd feel alot safer if i was there so perhaps life is looking up for me afterall...i have put in over 30 apps in 30 different places for various jobs and this is the one that i would love to do..it will keep me busy and focued..so i can now focus on getting my manuscript for my poetry book and do this job (hopefully) i need to find my center and i suppose maybe i am closer to it than i had ever dreamed. I do love my life. it seems th eolder i get (i'm 28) the easier it gets. there are hard times but we get through them. I jusy wish that Kurt Cobain would have understood that, I never thought that i would make it past 27 either. i figured i join that "stupid club" but i beat it. when i am 30 i want a huge party. i have some of the greatest friends in the world. they are honest with me no matter what and i love them all dearly. Maria is my sister from another mother,Sammy,well shes just the sweetest most beautiful soul i have ever met. Willie is my brotha from anotha motha,,we grew up together and are still growing together. he is an awesome guitar player too.BigJohn is the man.to the band,The Tea Club,,,what a friendly lot they are an di wish them the best of success_they deserve it..the underground shall rise again and it is called THE TEA CLUB.HA ! andyway that was my extended happy blog. to the Suicide Girls..stay beautiful inside and out.