sorry for the rant but I just don't know who else to talk to. I've never been good at letting out my feelings...
so a few days ago my mom finally went to the doctor about why she's pretty much lost most of her voice for over a month now, it sounds like she's sick but she really isn't. the news that she got was definitely NOT what I was expecting.
they found a pollup (not sure how its spelled) in her throat && it could be cancerous. she's also in the top 80% of needing a voice box surgery eventually and the doctor also said if she didn't quit smoking that day, her chances of getting cancer are insanely high.
its so much harder for me to deal with because so many people in her family already died from smoking related cancer so I had to see my mom suffer from that. my mom and I have always been so close. if I lost her I don't know what I would do. when she told me I pretty much just said wow mom im sorry, just quit smoking today. obviously the stress of hearing this news wasn't much help in her quitting, im praying to god that she can somehow find the strength to quit for her kids & grand kids.
today I just broke down crying because last night she didn't know who to talk to cause she's so stressed and upset, she said she didn't want to stress me out with it because I am pregnant but honestly ill be here for my mom till the day I die, I just want her be okay ill do anything & everything.
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