marimagic

There are times when life gest a little bit better, or is it just an illusion?
days for me are like, a rutine.. i always know what im gonna do.. and it sucks.. i hate rutine
to be honest.. i dont wanna sound stupid .. but i feel alone and not loved..
i keep on.. feeling like this.. like nothing really matters.. and that i dont really matter
everyone is doing their own thing.. they dont have time or they just dont want to listen to me.. pretending is really shitty...

im sorry ... this is so boring

EDITED TO SAY

that i was just checking the past sg file.. and omg .. in like a week so many girls left, including one of my favorites charlie.. now im sad
there`s kensington, mo, oryx, valentina, calamity and hellah.. oh my this is not good ..