Sometimes I sit and wonder "What is it all for? why do I even bother with relationships, someone always gets hurt."
I completely withdrew from even the possibility of letting myself get involved with anyone at one point after one went sour.. really sour. My sole regret in life.
This coming from a person who believes that regret is a waste of an emotion..
But I can only deceive myself for so long, because every time I think my resolve is solid, common sense delivers a swift kick to the head and I realize that it's not a choice, but a neccesity because the worst possible thing for anyone is to be alone. Alone and miserable.
I completely withdrew from even the possibility of letting myself get involved with anyone at one point after one went sour.. really sour. My sole regret in life.
This coming from a person who believes that regret is a waste of an emotion..
But I can only deceive myself for so long, because every time I think my resolve is solid, common sense delivers a swift kick to the head and I realize that it's not a choice, but a neccesity because the worst possible thing for anyone is to be alone. Alone and miserable.
on the other hand...if you don't participate in the game you'll have no stories to tell and when you're rotting away in an adult care facility you'll think to yourself "what the fuck was I wasting my youth on being all careful and aversive?"...or maybe you'll think your reflection in your window is someone looking at you and become all paranoid.... what am I talking about... sorry for WASTING space in your journal