Status quo
Focus: I am endeavouring to live each day as they come. I do not know where my life is leading, and I have not yet found a clear focus. So in lieu of purpose I am trying to find focus, and I'm doing that by practising meditation. I haven't yet managed to get a routine going for every day practise, routine and me are not great friends. But still, when I do manage to do it I find that the focus permeates my day, and I feel happier as a result.
Alcohol: I've been taking it much easier with my drinking. Alcohol is such a strange and pervasive drug. Hangovers are less my friend and more a source of anxiety and unhappiness. Right now I'm having a small whiskey left over from Sunday's picnic (thanks Suicidedoggie!). Next week I am going to New York for a friend's art show opening, and to see a bunch of friends. (Hello Chris and Aeleven!) Also for some ADVENTURE. I do like alcohol-fuelled adventure. Hmmm, quandry.
Romance: A lovely man I went out with a few times a couple of years ago has resurfaced, saying very sweet things. I like him very much but I cannot see us as partners. He says I have a control issue, I am too attached to being on my own. He's a little right, methinks, but still he and I are not right together. I just hope we can stay friends. Another man I quite like and find very charming and alluring is not so interested... isn't it always the way? I think I should not have slept with him. Anyway it was a fun encounter(if a little too drunken and hazy to the memory
), and I see friendship on the horizon - fine by me. Lucky for me there seems to be another possibility coming into sight. But wouldn't I rather just stay me with me and me only? Perhaps.
Photography: Scares the hell out of me. Should I try to make a career out of it? Should I go ahead and spend a load of money I don't have on a digital SLR so that I can try doing some editorial (live music) work? Is there work there to be done? I always freak out at this stuff... what if I can't do it?? Silly stuff.
Yoga: lots of it.
Friends: love, lots of it.
General Happiness: pretty darn good.
Brain: still slower and more freeform than I would like.
Nakedness: not sure if there will be more... trying to figure it out.
Playfulness: returning in the near future, I hope!
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I feel guilty... I went to my fave camera store today and they gave me quite a bit of their knowledge and time freely, but I knew all along that I wasn't going to spend my money there. (I am going to buy my camera in NYC next week where it will be much cheaper.) So as some kind of compensation I thought I could give them a little bit of a plug here:
Go see the lovely guys at Kingsley Photographic. They really know their stuff, and they are very nice with it. Especially if you need anything Nikon or Leica.
Focus: I am endeavouring to live each day as they come. I do not know where my life is leading, and I have not yet found a clear focus. So in lieu of purpose I am trying to find focus, and I'm doing that by practising meditation. I haven't yet managed to get a routine going for every day practise, routine and me are not great friends. But still, when I do manage to do it I find that the focus permeates my day, and I feel happier as a result.
Alcohol: I've been taking it much easier with my drinking. Alcohol is such a strange and pervasive drug. Hangovers are less my friend and more a source of anxiety and unhappiness. Right now I'm having a small whiskey left over from Sunday's picnic (thanks Suicidedoggie!). Next week I am going to New York for a friend's art show opening, and to see a bunch of friends. (Hello Chris and Aeleven!) Also for some ADVENTURE. I do like alcohol-fuelled adventure. Hmmm, quandry.
Romance: A lovely man I went out with a few times a couple of years ago has resurfaced, saying very sweet things. I like him very much but I cannot see us as partners. He says I have a control issue, I am too attached to being on my own. He's a little right, methinks, but still he and I are not right together. I just hope we can stay friends. Another man I quite like and find very charming and alluring is not so interested... isn't it always the way? I think I should not have slept with him. Anyway it was a fun encounter(if a little too drunken and hazy to the memory
), and I see friendship on the horizon - fine by me. Lucky for me there seems to be another possibility coming into sight. But wouldn't I rather just stay me with me and me only? Perhaps.
Photography: Scares the hell out of me. Should I try to make a career out of it? Should I go ahead and spend a load of money I don't have on a digital SLR so that I can try doing some editorial (live music) work? Is there work there to be done? I always freak out at this stuff... what if I can't do it?? Silly stuff.
Yoga: lots of it.
Friends: love, lots of it.
General Happiness: pretty darn good.
Brain: still slower and more freeform than I would like.
Nakedness: not sure if there will be more... trying to figure it out.
Playfulness: returning in the near future, I hope!
~~~
I feel guilty... I went to my fave camera store today and they gave me quite a bit of their knowledge and time freely, but I knew all along that I wasn't going to spend my money there. (I am going to buy my camera in NYC next week where it will be much cheaper.) So as some kind of compensation I thought I could give them a little bit of a plug here:
Go see the lovely guys at Kingsley Photographic. They really know their stuff, and they are very nice with it. Especially if you need anything Nikon or Leica.
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By the way, I was looking at your photos in the "i make photos" section... nice work!
You changed your pic again! Very funky. I gues I'll see you next weekend, right?