Sometimes
I wish I was brave
I wish I was stronger
I wish I could feel no pain
I wish I was young
I wish I was shy
I wish I was honest
I wish I was you not I
'Cause I feel so mad
I feel so angry
I feel so callused
So lost, confused, again
I feel so cheap
So used, unfaithful
Let's... Read More
Okay, so I'm still feeling a bit rough around the edges and will probably continue to do so for quite awhile, but I did have a pretty good day. Had a productive hour with my therapist yesterday and envisioned placing some of my darker emotions and thoughts of my ex-girlfriend in a container and sealing them away until a later time when I can deal... Read More
So, house hunting sucks. Everyone keeps saying "Moving is no big deal", "Hey, its exciting, you'll be in a new place and and and..."
Fuck those people, they're not the ones moving! I like my current house. I liked living there with my girlfriend. NOw its all gone. Or will be soon. I seriously think this break up is temporary, but still, it sucks. Its... Read More
Approaching the whole single thing with open arms (for now, anyways) is probably the best thing that you can do. I do think that you and K are meant to be, and I hope that it happens for you two...but if it doesn't, then I trust that there will be someone else out there.
I also appreciate your trans-continental effort to fix me up.
I'm getting really fed up with shit lately. I have little drive and little "give a shit" left over. A great deal of it stems from the fact that my relationship is taking on a more "friends" aspect in order to "save" my "boyfriend/girlfriend/lovers" relationship. That she is drawing... Read More
I'm so sorry to hear of your troubles. I've been going through a rough time as well. I have nothing particularly profound to add, I only hope things look better.
Well, the divorce process continues now that I'm home. It's very close to being complete (and would be closer if her attorney wasn't such a tosser). The down side is this: It appears that the ex is moving to San Francisco at the end of the year. And, yes, that means taking the kids north with her... I'm not real happy about it. The issue... Read More
And you definitely need to get to Manhattan sometime. All the urine stench of Euclid Avenue, with the added bonus of well, everything that comes with being NYC.
Holy crap. Long trip. But a good time. First off, the port visit to Yokosuka, Japan was okay. Not great, but okay. I really had very little in the way of time to sight see, visit Tokyo, etc... With everything going on with the Chief's Transition / Initiation (i.e., weird shit for my promotion) I really didn't get to... Read More
The good news is that I ws advanced to Chief Petty Officer. This is a serious promotion with alot of responsibility. I thank all the people who have ever worked for me and all those who have guided me through the years.
The bad news is that I won't be around much for the next few months. I'll be... Read More
Well, not alot to report right now. Still in school and being yelled at by former SEALS on a nearly daily basis (word of wisdom, don't drop your weapon while running... They don't like that at all) but enjoying myself.
The California DMV still sucks for all those who were wondering
Watched the Big Lebowski yet again. Cannot love that movie enough. Also, on the... Read More
I like the bit of story that you've shared with us, too. Very cool.