Well, after today, I may be around a little less for a while. Today is the day my wife and I start our seperation. 
I'm not feeling very good about it, but I think it has to be done. My wife, L, and my two beautiful kids will be gone for the four day weekend and I'll be hanging out at a friend's house for...
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I'm not feeling very good about it, but I think it has to be done. My wife, L, and my two beautiful kids will be gone for the four day weekend and I'll be hanging out at a friend's house for...
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Sorry, haven't been around much. Between life and work, I've been a bit busy and pretty much drained physically and emotionally by the time I can actually sit down at my machina.
Work, almost over. School and more fucked up boring ass Navy training, about to begin. Relationship? Who fucking knows. Not me, that's for damn sure. I've never been so conflicted, confused and plain...
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Work, almost over. School and more fucked up boring ass Navy training, about to begin. Relationship? Who fucking knows. Not me, that's for damn sure. I've never been so conflicted, confused and plain...
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missfire:
You know I just said that so Mr. Flickwood doesn't suspect anything..... 
sweetavenue:
I'm sorry things are working out for you, sweetie. Just try to keep your head up, okay? And feel free to vent away here, that's what these journal thingees are for.
Strange day...
This morning was another huge blow up. "This isn't my problem, it's yours" was thrown at me, then more 'discussion' followed by "I think we should seperate"... Fuck me running. I lost it. I went off. Things were ugly. I left to go fix my car (bad fan motor leading to overheating engine, no biggie, and it gave me time to cool down)....
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This morning was another huge blow up. "This isn't my problem, it's yours" was thrown at me, then more 'discussion' followed by "I think we should seperate"... Fuck me running. I lost it. I went off. Things were ugly. I left to go fix my car (bad fan motor leading to overheating engine, no biggie, and it gave me time to cool down)....
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magni:
Wow...been there...I'm finally getting the dust off, after going through "the worst" outcome imagineable, the one I was always trying to avoid and worrying about, "divorce". Its been almost 5 months now.
We stayed friends and I got a lot of closure that way...a hell of a lot actually! I've been lucky that way.
However...it should never have happened.
Its sounds like, with you, she is confused about who is to blame, or who is an obstacle, for something, and that's why separating appeals to her. To just work on her own issues. Its actually easier to handle your own stuff on your own but its a terrible option and could take longer than the time frame when you still have the opportunity to put things back together. Thats what happened to me.
Nobody is a bad person in mine and the love is real. But issue-resolving-timeframes dilated and we couldn't hold it together. We had to keep confronting the issue everytime we went home. I wish we had done a marriage sabbatical..separate vacations...if it was early enough it might have helped who knows..but I didn't even try that.
EDIT: subject clarification.
[Edited on May 21, 2004 5:56AM]
We stayed friends and I got a lot of closure that way...a hell of a lot actually! I've been lucky that way.
However...it should never have happened.
Its sounds like, with you, she is confused about who is to blame, or who is an obstacle, for something, and that's why separating appeals to her. To just work on her own issues. Its actually easier to handle your own stuff on your own but its a terrible option and could take longer than the time frame when you still have the opportunity to put things back together. Thats what happened to me.
Nobody is a bad person in mine and the love is real. But issue-resolving-timeframes dilated and we couldn't hold it together. We had to keep confronting the issue everytime we went home. I wish we had done a marriage sabbatical..separate vacations...if it was early enough it might have helped who knows..but I didn't even try that.
EDIT: subject clarification.
[Edited on May 21, 2004 5:56AM]
daddyx:
Bonjour. Que Pasa. Wie Geht's?
Not much to say right now... Things are what they are.
About the only thing interesting was that today I founf out just how god awful heavy armor is... I'm borrowing a set of armor (leg grieves, gauntlets, full arm bracers, helmet, shoulder plates, and brigandine over armor) to go off to war with. Memorial Day weekend I'll be fighting at the Petrero War here...
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About the only thing interesting was that today I founf out just how god awful heavy armor is... I'm borrowing a set of armor (leg grieves, gauntlets, full arm bracers, helmet, shoulder plates, and brigandine over armor) to go off to war with. Memorial Day weekend I'll be fighting at the Petrero War here...
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shera:
howdy
peggy:
Hey sweetie, hope things are going well for you at home! It was another beautiful day and hopefully you were able to enjoy it!!
Okay, new day, new entry. Well, on the relationship front things are improving. There's been more talking, more understanding, and more, well, 'intimacy' if you will. *ahem* Anyway, I've been talking to my good friend and went out to have a few drinks . He's only in town until the 15th and then I have no idea when I'llever see him again. Well, he gave...
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peggy:
Sounds interesting.....but all I really need is my heart back.
He posted to some of my friends and yelled at them for what they said to me and then he did this big journal rant full of lies about me and finally changed it.
He posted to some of my friends and yelled at them for what they said to me and then he did this big journal rant full of lies about me and finally changed it.
missfire:
I'm glad you're having fun with OJ, tell him I said hello. And remember that I heart you, too, so if things don't work out we can finally get rid of MrFlickwood and get down. Great jorb!! (I said that on the phone today by accident. Jas is still making fun of me) 
Okay, going to have a good day. Relationship? Well, still rocky, but improving. However, my brother flew in today from Texas. He's not my actual brother, but he's pretty much the closest person to me in the entire world, with exception of my wife. So any way, OJ is in town and I'm prepared to completely wreck some shit. And some brain cells. I'm pretty...
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sweetavenue:
sounds like a good time. i hope you're having fun.
doublec:
thanks! like i posted in EvilLyn's journal, i didn't post or choose the pics in that thread...those were put there by people who liked them for some reason or other...guess that's what makes us all different....and why there are a million and one choices of ice cream...anyway, i'm tipsy, tired and hoarse from the Manic Hispanic show...night! 
and thanks again for the positive words!
and thanks again for the positive words! Okay, time to update the journal. I'm sitting here throwin' back Maker's Mark and Coke (and hopefully not throwing it _up_ later) whilst chain smoking and listening to Cowboy Junkies... Anyway, I'm still working on the relationship issues and I'd like to thank the few people who have kindly offered advice and words of encouragement. I'm pretty sure I'm going to get through all of...
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parisambrosia:
Master Tattoo.............6192392684........downtown SD 
missfire:
I KNOW why you want ink, cuz mine fooking rocks. And now I want more. You've seen mine, I'll give you a number and a discount, hell I'll even go with ya. Lemme know. love you!
And I'm in love with Maps, too. Maps. They don't love you like I love you. Ahh.....
[Edited on May 07, 2004 12:11PM]
And I'm in love with Maps, too. Maps. They don't love you like I love you. Ahh.....
[Edited on May 07, 2004 12:11PM]
All right, so here's the deal. My marriage is on the rocks, but slowly improving thanks to therapy and patience. If anyone's ever gone through the emotional meat grinder like this, I pledge to you my undying admiration. Anyone who has dealt with all this is a stron, strong individual. The pain is incredibale, and the healing process only brings out more. It's all a...
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sweetavenue:
i'm not really sweating that age thing. that was for good times.
and you better believe i'm hitting my prime
and you better believe i'm hitting my prime
throatneedle:
yup yup! thats where my screen name comes from
mushizo and his mighty throatneedle!
too bad he got sliced under water...bollocks
mushizo and his mighty throatneedle!
too bad he got sliced under water...bollocks
Allright, Just checking out the site and being the new guy on the block. Just a quick "What's up!?" to my friends MissFire and MrFlickwood. To everyone else, how the hell are you? Drop me a line, make a comment, if you're in San Diego, let's get a beer or coffee or something. I'm on the prowl for friends and more.
Anyway, just thought I'd...
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cigarette:
You can't burn down a campus mad entirely of cement.
mrflickwood:
So that's it?! Your first SG post and you rant on about your dad! C'mon man, get with the program! You'll never be a ninja if you keep this shit up!!
[Edited on May 01, 2004 7:57AM]
[Edited on May 01, 2004 7:57AM]
Seriously, I hope things with you are improving. Remember you can always e-mail or IM me.