marginwalker2002

Mood - Sour. Very.

Music - Everclear, "Sparkle and Fade". It seems appropriate right now.

I can't summon any positive emotions anymore when I think of her. The joy that used to be there is completely clouded by the spectres of depression and loathing. I don't enjoy her presence in any way and I just stay upset when she's gone. It's lose lose really. I'm tired of the hypocricy of her actions, the way she goes on as if nothing had changed. She's more than willing to continue doing everything that tore me apart before and has no remorse.

An earlier conversation was so eye opening to me. So much harsh truth and a glaring light on her selfish priorities.

"Why is it that when you want to do something I really have no desire to do, I do it so I can be with you doing something you like. But when I ask you to do something with me that may not be your cup of tea, you just won't do it?"
"If I don't want to do something, well, I'm just not going to do it".
"So, you're completely unwilling to compromise and give a little to do something the other person enjoys?"
"I don't see a point in it"

Very nice. I told my good friend this would be so much easier if I could just bring my self to hate her. He said, "DOn't worry. You will in time". I didn't really believe him at the time. I'm beginning to think I was wrong...

For those that have already seen this, I added a pic of my favorite baby girl (Sorry, babygirl, but you DO run a close 2nd ) with her broken wing and rock and roll attitude.