Edited to add: I want to thank everyone for the outpouring of support. A few of you went so far as to link me to your journals and for that you have my sincerest thanks and appreciation. You are all amazing people and your love and support is a tremendous help in my families time of need.
I really have nothing to report. Seriously. Nothing other than the fact that I despise Hallmark and all those fucking jewelers who seek to make me feel like some 3-headed, drooling freak because I have no one to love right now. Fuck them. Fuck them in their dirty, overly commercialized asses.
So, random name changes are occurring. Do not be alarmed. Do not adjust your settings. I am still MarginWalker2002 (assuming some bastard doesn't steal the name when I'm ready to change back). I think they will come at no real interval, just whenever I feel its time. I believe "YourMomsClam" may be next. We'll see. I'm also open to suggestions. And open to sex. Seriously.... Read More
When you left,
I found myself the
homeless victim of
a major disaster.
I called the Red Cross
but they refused
to send over a nurse.
I'm moving on. Not over her, but well on the way. She cannot make me cry. Songs that remind me of her have no power over me anymore. I can sing "Chasing Cars"... Read More
Sometimes
I wish I was brave
I wish I was stronger
I wish I could feel no pain
I wish I was young
I wish I was shy
I wish I was honest
I wish I was you not I
'Cause I feel so mad
I feel so angry
I feel so callused
So lost, confused, again
I feel so cheap
So used, unfaithful
Let's... Read More
Okay, so I'm still feeling a bit rough around the edges and will probably continue to do so for quite awhile, but I did have a pretty good day. Had a productive hour with my therapist yesterday and envisioned placing some of my darker emotions and thoughts of my ex-girlfriend in a container and sealing them away until a later time when I can deal... Read More
So, house hunting sucks. Everyone keeps saying "Moving is no big deal", "Hey, its exciting, you'll be in a new place and and and..."
Fuck those people, they're not the ones moving! I like my current house. I liked living there with my girlfriend. NOw its all gone. Or will be soon. I seriously think this break up is temporary, but still, it sucks. Its... Read More
Approaching the whole single thing with open arms (for now, anyways) is probably the best thing that you can do. I do think that you and K are meant to be, and I hope that it happens for you two...but if it doesn't, then I trust that there will be someone else out there.
I also appreciate your trans-continental effort to fix me up.
I'm getting really fed up with shit lately. I have little drive and little "give a shit" left over. A great deal of it stems from the fact that my relationship is taking on a more "friends" aspect in order to "save" my "boyfriend/girlfriend/lovers" relationship. That she is drawing... Read More
I'm so sorry to hear of your troubles. I've been going through a rough time as well. I have nothing particularly profound to add, I only hope things look better.
Well, the divorce process continues now that I'm home. It's very close to being complete (and would be closer if her attorney wasn't such a tosser). The down side is this: It appears that the ex is moving to San Francisco at the end of the year. And, yes, that means taking the kids north with her... I'm not real happy about it. The issue... Read More
And you definitely need to get to Manhattan sometime. All the urine stench of Euclid Avenue, with the added bonus of well, everything that comes with being NYC.
Holy crap. Long trip. But a good time. First off, the port visit to Yokosuka, Japan was okay. Not great, but okay. I really had very little in the way of time to sight see, visit Tokyo, etc... With everything going on with the Chief's Transition / Initiation (i.e., weird shit for my promotion) I really didn't get to... Read More
*hugs*
I got the book today! Thanks for getting it gift wrapped and for the note. You are amazing!