Hey SG
You know, I have been asked a lot random questions in my life time....ones that make sense and ones that don't. Questions like "What drives you?" "Black or White socks?" the list goes on. I figured I'd write a blog answering those important life questions and allowing you to get to know me more in depth. Most of you have seen me....ALL of me, but do you really know what I'm about and who I am? Some of you, yes, others probably not and some....probably don't even care as long as they can see my Va Jay Jay. But of course, this isn't all about me....I'm not a selfish person...I want to know about YOU also. After reading this blog...or not reading this blog....what does it matter...ha...comment below telling me about yourself. I want to know my followers more in depth too. I talk to some of you regularly or reply sarcastic comments in certain groups, but I want to know what you're all about also.
But alas, let's begin.
I am an Aries, year of the Ox, and redhead....needless to say I am a stubborn ass. I have a short fuse, short patience and I'm very blunt....but I'm also the best and most loyal friend anyone could have. Once you have gained my trust, I will be there for you in thick or thin...break the trust and you shall receive the wrath of the red head! I truly do believe that honesty is the best policy and I pride myself on never lying (unless it's to hide a surprise). There are no need for secrets. If a person can not accept me for who I am, my past or anything like that, then why would I want them around? People can take my honesty as being rude/bitchy. Sorry, not sorry. If you look absolutely ridiculous in that dress, I'm going to tell you that you look like a fool.
While I had a wonderful family growing up, I had no friends, no acquaintances, and had a horrible school life. I was a straight A student, never had to study, I literally soaked up information like a sponge. I pride myself also on being intelligent. I know a lot about a lot of things but I never shove it in anyone's face because who likes a know it all? No one. I was picked on everyday in school from 1st grade to 12th grade...for being a Star Wars geek, being smart, being a red head the list goes on. I was called names such as Ginger, Polka Dot, Carrot Top, Casper, Nerd...I was pushed into lockers, shoved in the bathroom, had things thrown at me, I ate lunch alone in either the bathroom or the art room where I felt safe. It caused me to become an outcast, a social recluse, I now have a severe social anxiety disorder which I have attempted to over come but it's taken years for me to even be in a group setting outside my home. So I'm very much a hermit. And if you've followed me or read any of my blogs this isn't anything you don't already know.
It has taken me YEARS to accept myself for who I am....and now I could care less what people think. While I still have anxiety, I don't bother with other people. I have a few close friends and that's all I need. I'm not going to change for anything or anyone.....ha...there I got being a stubborn ass again!
My favorite flower is the Sunflower because technically it's a weed and it can literally grow anywhere. Have you ever been in an entire field of Sunflowers?! It's the most beautiful thing ever!
I wear hoodies, beanies, long socks and all those types of things all year round. It could be 100 degrees out and I'll have a beanie and a hoodie on. I'm still not sure why....I'm tiny so I do get cold easily but there's something comforting about big sweaters and beanies..... ya know?
I'm a huge gamer. Because I am not social outside in the real world like the average human being, I tend to be a very social gamer. I feel I can be myself over a voice chat more than being a huge group of people at a bar. Hanging out with my 20 guildies online....there is zero anxiety. I feel safe. I feel I'm with people who are like me and they tend to understand and get me more. Plus they aren't staring straight at me. Lately I've been playing Wildstar, but I love my shooters too! Call of Duty or better yet, Battlefield! I spend hours a day getting lost in virtual worlds. It helps take away my depression, anxiety and body pains because my brain is focused else where.....just for those few hours I feel normal and accepted...and what a wonderful feeling it is. I do own an XBOne and PS4....however I am on my PC more than anything. PCgaming is my heart and soul.
If you have followed me and read my blogs you would know that I have MS. It's been a struggle and a half but I don't let it get me down or define who I am. I just keep pushing through even if there are days I can't walk (that's when those hard core gaming days come in....I forget I'm even in pain). It's a disease that can't be cured and only gets worse as time goes on. I'm fully aware that I may not walk again at some point...and I"m ok with it! I won't let it stop me!
-People's whole lives do pass in front of their eye before dying. The process is called "Living
What drives me?! My artwork and my family. I love to draw and paint....though I have drawing ADD. I'll start a piece and never finish it. I don't have a certain style because I have drawn so many different things in my life that I am well rounded. I do however love drawing the woman figure and comic stuff. I do also draw on inanimate objects when I'm bored around the house haha. I know... I'm weird. Here is just a handful of my drawings/paintings/inanimate object pictures.
I have an obsession with knee high socks....and to answer the question someone asked me...mostly black ones >.< I don't know why, but I love WEIRD socks. Designs, writing, comic ones, star wars ones etc....I always have knee high socks on.
I am bi-sexual. Please don't get that confused with bi-curious. The longest relationship I've been in has been with a woman. Right now I am in one with a man, who is the love of my life. Being Bi, I don't discriminate in love. I feel that in whatever form love shows itself whether it be in a man or a woman...I accept it. Plus sex with a woman is just amazing. No offense boys ;)
I am the queen of randomness. My brain literally works 100 miles per hour. I can be talking about one thing or thinking about one thing and then all of a sudden it's something else, without me even noticing. Hi, I like peanut butter. Can you swim? ^.^
And I will leave you with that....I'll share a few random thoughts with you before I go...
- At such times the universe gets a little closer to us. They are strange times, times of beginnings and endings. Dangerous and powerful. And we feel it even if we don't know what it is. These times are not necessarily good, and not necessarily bad. In fact, what they are depends on what *we* are.
- Never build a dungeon you wouldn't be happy to spend the night in yourself. The world would be a happier place if more people remembered that.
- Mere animals couldn’t possibly manage to act like this. You need to be a human being to be really stupid.
- Don't do anything I wouldn't do, if you ever find anything I wouldn't do.
- It's vital to remember who you really are. It's very important. It isn't a good idea to rely on other people or things to do it for you, you see. They always get it wrong.
Now comment below about yourself. I genuinely want to know!
XoXo
Mara- Current set in MR
