manmademadness

Him : "Yeah I'm such a retard, I just sit there and keep nodding and smiling... It goes in one ear and out the other... okay peace (he never says peace, I've never noticed how cynical he was until now...) "

me : "yeah I'm the same way, You know how it is, see no evil, hear no evil. (and you're such a typical shittalkin evil) aight thanks sean, byebye! ( and i said it like I used to. happy. because I meant it.) "

Its funny, when I was younger, i used to party with these people, they were nice to me. now all they seem to say is shit. Yeah, I don't blame them though. I had lost myself for qujite a while. a true friend left and I lost a large part of me. but, did they stand by and help me out? Of course not. Predictably stagnant meth fiends. Jesse once told me "You can't go on trusting people like that kombo..." For the most painful while, I almost believed her. I almost became like her and the rest. I just remembered who I am however, and what I know, Is i am nothing like them. I'm not going to break my legs taking big steps over little people. No matter how ugly they make themselves They'll always be beautiful to me. my very existence defies their negativity. They can't throw their self-loathing at that which isn't like themselves. Wish me luck. I will bite my tongue and not break their faces. for to the fucking real.