manichat

So many of my days are spent trying to fullfill the needs of others. I feel as if I am doing my best by helping others get to their next step or whatever. In my head I think that I am doing this successfully but I am not. I will make false commitments [not purposely but knowing down deep inside that there is no way in hell I will be able to this in the time specified] and all in all not really helping the other person.

Now I use to be able to make my commitments, thus successfully aiding the person or situation with ful execution. There are just too many now. Plus with this time deficiency rendering failure in most of my daily events.....well......it has left me tired, dissappointed, and just blah about myself. I feel as if I owe some apologies to people like the to the DandJAC, the Punits, TMcA, and sometimes to the Alfredo however he deserves my neglience sometimes the way he treats me....but still these individuals know me and know that I am true so most of the time the apology is not needed however understood.

So I am going to slow down a bit. Guess you can say that I am just shooting myself in the foot but if I didn't do that on a regular basis.....I wouldn't be me - whatever.

tootles.