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Saturday Oct 16, 2004

Oct 16, 2004
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So far today (yeah right 8:30am) I feel somewhat high~elevated~but weired......Last night I was 'chatting' with this way cool righteous hunk, hehehehe, when I had somewhat of a break through. Now this has happened only one other time so far in my life and it was overwhelming.

There is a section of my childhood that remains as people love to say 'blocked'. To clarify some without long and drwn out details, I have forgotten a period of time that started with a traumatic death in my family. Needless to say that it affected me greatly but none of this was ever really brought into light until a few years ago when I was myself put into a traumatic position myself.

But last night I remembered.......I did. Things started following out, just like they say it does....like a damn breaking and all the water just spurting out. It is like a photo album. Little pictures pop in and out and little details become so vivid. It really is overwhelming and quite energizing as long as it is of a good nature.

But I remembered. I remembered the tears, the pain, the love and most of all - I remembered me.

Cool. Just wanted to share.

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adamd:
WOW jaded....I don't remember anywhere near that far back. Maybe a flash of pre-school, then pretty consistent starting with kindergarden. But 2!! damn...

EDIT to say kindergarden not pre-school for you a/r's out there.

[Edited on Oct 16, 2004 9:22PM]
Oct 16, 2004
abadinfluence:
woohoo! New picture. yay boobies.

Anyways ... I've had a few of those breakthrough moments in my life. Apparently I blocked A LOT of shit from my childhood ... which kinda scares me as I remember a lot of stuff too.
Oct 17, 2004

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