manichat

You guys wanna know something? I mean - it's a secret - only I and all of yous will know - okay.

Ok - come in a little closer - a little more -

I SUCK!

I mean it - don't tell anyone okay. PLEASE!

Man -- I pissed my mom off today via email and seriously that is like the lowest of lows - really - I mean it - when she responded to one of my emails - and I will admit it was kind of pissy but not really - honestly.

A little background on the aged female half of my parental unit division - aka - MA(menstrual authoritive) 'I am only 4'11 and weight 91lbs...but look at these pants, do they make my butt look too big?'. As a good friend recently and frankly explained to his ranking MA - 'Mom - you are still pretty and have a great face but let's face it, you are almost __ and no one is looking at your ass anymore.' - PLUS - my MA is tooooo cute and she is deaf. Some would feel sorry for her but she is not completely deaf -95% hearing loss and believe you me, she HEARS what she wants to hear. Sometimes I think it is just a roost her and her male counterpart aka DAD (donator authoritive decider) schemed up together in the early days of parental 'green'ness as attempts on keeping an 'insider' always lurking ~however her MA, aka G.MA aka general(ly) making assumptions, has backed her claim with many well documented photos and articles in the Star Telegram not to mention the dramatic stories of unselfish dedication of raising this "God must have given her to much love when creating her for there was no room for it' child as a single mother in the 50-60's. Sometimes - I think it was a good plan BUT I KNOW BETTER - you can't fool me!

Taking the rant back to the original platform - I had asked to borrow a few bones for things I needed here and there for $$ was not available until next week yada yada yada - Well, she is one of those wife's (and believe me it is not a bad thing - it is just all that they knew of what a wife was at the time and the only way they know how to be, not criticizing at all - just feeling in the gray area) who has to 'ask' the husband first - even though it is her own account - and really only her money goes in it for the rest of the money aquired is typical business related (or can be considered for tax purposes) via DAD's resources of which we can call 'daily routine of physical excersion to obtain flat retangular, moldly green and snotty cream colored graphics with various writing for deciphering status pieces of trade to keep self and those close to self alive'. SO - her money is the 'extra' money since there is no mortgage and the only thing that really cost is their love of beating the Jones's (and A/C~Texas). I asked her on Wed via message on voicemail - then again on Thursday via email - finally got a response on Saturday but nothing was mentioned about the $$ just hi..hello..call me.. miss you...love you..etc. So I responded back via email - 'hey totally cool here, will call you when I am in route to CDM around 12. AND by the way - the money thing?'

a few minutes later - we will send you a check in the next week sometime response. Love ya!

now most people ask to borrow money because of the lack of it at the current time in need? correct?

I respond - hey will the check be coming from your account or DAD's - if it is coming from your's then I will just pull it out and transfer now (and yes I know that this is bad but hey - if someone asks you to set them up on ebay and a paypal account so they can 'play' on ebay , hands over all the info needed, and is your MA - sometimes you can have a tendency not to LOSE the user id and password to the paypal account - and set yourself as current owner with them being a user that way you can not be deleted from the account and are completely notified if ANYTHING changes like passwords, etc.) well - then set it up yourself next time....... and if it is coming from DAD's account - just have him give you the money or check - okay - I mean I really hate the teasing of the $$ on a maybe or maybe not basis. It really stresses me out - okay. Love ya - *'~~~
send, file, new, window, www.paypal.com, user id $##%%##, password *********, 'no thanks', enter, go to account, send money, recieptant $#%$##@yahoo.com, amount XXX.XX, service OTHER, subject CUZ, message I DONT WANT TO WAIT FOR STUPID FUCKING CHECK , enter........confirm confirm .....enter, your money has been sent. in 18.36 seconds flat - would have been less time if I didn't have to write a 'pointless release of anger to add the extra touch of pissiness' message but I felt it was relevant at the time.

SO - I get an email from here later in the day and she is snappy - even use the word chit (which is shit in MA language, still the added cuteness) and follows it up with a Hallmark E Card - that is a 'missing you - you are special to me' one. Extra cuteness with added sugar -

...... ......I hurt MA feelings.

So as I sit there for a bit and beat myself up, a call comes in on the cell and it is urgent which takes my head toward another realm - allowing me to forget for the day. Then today - I read the last email again from here and wrote back:

DUDE - sorry - I hate it when you cuss -you must have been in a bad mode - ~you see, you are not ever suppose to be in a bad mood because when Jamie or Daddy or I am pissy - we always unleash on you or isn't this your position?Aren't you are suppose to be the bigger one and take it - what happen? - I mean really - you are suppose to be the rock in this family owned organization, the 2x4 that supports us. What happened???? Not open like 7-11 anymore - jeez there goes the convienence. hehehehe - I am sorry - t

- I hate it when I am a little brat. Sometimes we all have a tendency to take loved ones for granted. The people we love the most are the ones we hurt the most - I hate that - I best be lookin' for some new britches for I seem to have ripped my last ones.